FALLING DOWN. DEEP UNDER.

Sorry for hurting you. Sorry for constantly bringing you pain. I didn’t mean to hurt you. I don’t want to hurt you. I don’t want to hurt everyone that I love. Don’t say that you’re just nothing because you mean a lot to me. Don’t say that it will be okay to live without you because I’m being so used with you and I’m fucking scared to lose you. I’m so tired of losing people I valued so much. I hate people for always leaving. I just don’t want to be showy and say directly that you mean so much to me because I don’t want your feelings to grow deeper and bigger. God put you into my life because He wants me to learn something valuable and I’m thankful for that. I’m thankful because He used you to teach me things. I don’t want anybody else to teach me those things. I owe you a lot. Just don’t walk away just like them. I’m tired in that kind of situation. I’m sorry for caring too much that ended to be this selfish. I love you. Sorry for everything. Sorry for not fighting back. Just don’t leave.