Archieved

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What was that annoying sound? It was like a constant buzzing in his ears. Why was his name being repeated like that? It was irritating and unnecessary. He were fine. They were just performing, everything were going great. Yes he were tired, but it was nothing he couldn’t work around…. Wait, when did he leave the stage? He didn’t remember. All he could remember were singing and dancing and then. Only darkness.

Slowly his senses returned, his fingers twitching slightly as he tried to get the feeling back in his body, light seeming to bright to his eyes as he tried to opened them, only meet with a blur of someone sitting beside him, before he gave up and closed his eyes back again. Couldn’t someone turn off the light for his poor eyes? It was almost like being out in daylight. Horrible. Annoying. Wait where was he again?

Something around his mouth felt to hot, like it was kind of constant steam every time he breath out. Lifting his hand to remove it, something stopping it as he felt something stuck in his hand and finger. Ah.. This… Seemed to familiar… What he could pick up on, it could only be one thing

Hospital

How long had he been out? Was it hours? Days? Uwa.. Had he missed any lives? He knew he that the last concert there would only be a week to Knights next live, and he really didn’t wanted to disappointing them. But he hadn’t expected that he would faint like this again, it was years since he had been tied like this to a hospital bed.

Letting his hand fall back to rest on the bed again, this was really horrible, maybe this would be as bad as it could get, hopefully. Forcing his eyes to opened again, trying to focus as he looked around the room, his scarlet eyes landing on the older nocturnal. Why did he looked so worried? it wasn’t like this hadn’t happened before.

“… Anija..”  

Rei had been worried to death, the painfully long trip to the hospital had almost killed him. He’d wanted to yell at the passengers at the plane. Urge his taxi driver to drive faster. But at the same time he knew it wouldn’t change anything.

His heart skipped at the sight of the tall building, his head feeling empty as he asked for Ritsus room. Having to show ID to ensure he was, in fact, related to the idol. Usually he’d joke at it, but this time- no.  After having waited on the elevator for what felt like hours, he chose the stairs. Jumping up a few steps at a time. Trying to contain the panic. Trying to not cry as he reached the door, not minding his painfully fast breaths. 

However the sight of Ritsus lifeless body broke him. tears spilling from his scarlet eyes, as he closed the door behind him, barely noticing the nurse by his side. Tiny whispers of “Ritsu- Ritsu.. Ritsu-” Being the only words he could muster. 

He felt like he’d somehow triggered this. Although he knew not all fell back on him. That the world didn’t revolve around him. Slowly sinking down in the empty chair besides Ritsus bed, he pushed back his hair, covering his mouth as he watched his brothers slow breaths. Failing to hold back the broken sobs, as his other hand searched for Ritsus cold. 

He knew he shouldn’t have left him at Yumenosaki. That he should have insisted to stay another year. Keep his dearest treasure in sight. Instead of chasing the impossible. A life in the limelight as a nocturnal... It was so absurd. So out of reach. yet he’d still chosen that over... Over Ritsu. Seeing him collapse on the stage - knowing he couldn’t get to his side in an instant... It was the worst. The absolute worst.

He should never have left Japan.

It took him hours to calm down. His restless movements eventually triggering the nurses enough to kick him out of the room. Tell him to go rest. Go shower. Go eat. So Rei did. 

Moving without seeing where he was going. Eating without registrering what he put in his mouth. And he wound up borrowing a shower after sending what was supposed to be a charming smile, but ended up being rather shattered, to a doctor. 

Finally clean, he returned to Ritsus side. Braiding their fingers together as he looked down at his unresponsive face. Trying to avoid crying yet again, as he called out to him. Desperate to apologize for just about anything. 

His eyes brows twitched by his brother movement, a deep flush covering his cheeks, goddamnit, he was playing with his feelings and hormones, their bodies being flushed so close didn’t get him on any better thoughts. Not able to figure out if he wanted him to keep going or stop. His mind forgetting what ever they was talked about as he tried to get his mind back on track.

Shaking his head he focused his gaze back at his brother, sticking his tongue out towards him. He had forgotten he never had gotten anything too eat, not like it was first time. But he could as well come back with a comment to test his brother Sanity. “I rather just eat you.”

Well if it stood to Rei, he’d gladly continue. However he knew better. Although the blush and look on Ritsus face urged him to keep going. Ah, he’d have to keep himself on a tight leash. No matter how cute his brother seemed.

“Hm, doesn’t sound that nutritional.” Wiggling slightly closer, Rei cupped his cheek, narrowing his eyes as he considered just remaining besides him. Or just doing something else entirely. Although he knew he shouldn’t... Entertaining the thought didn’t hurt, did it. 

“I am always right.” And if he wasn’t he was going to make sure one way or another he was right in the end, however it was lucky that Rei never did bring any of them home. Else it would had been sad if they suddenly was ‘dispose’ of, or suddenly broke up with Rei. Not that it would be Ritsu fault at all, no no.

“You are gross, Anija.” He puffed his cheeks out in a pout, rummaging under him as he tried to find a comfortable position, settling under his weight, placing a hand in his brother face to make him stop looking. Maybe he should bite him again as revenge for looking so damn attractive with narrowed eyes.

Rising an eyebrow, Rei simply gave him a blank look. Choosing to not reply. His look was plenty. Ritsu certainly weren’t right all the time. But debating it would probably cause more trouble than needed. 

“Hai hai~” Humming in response to Ritsus words, Rei opened his mouth, letting his fangs drag against Ritsus palm. Flashing a light grin as he wrapped a hand around his wrist.

“Eeh? But Ritsu... It’s the easiest way to keep people contained.” Against their will that is.

If Ritsu had been anywhere near a clear mind, he might had been able to catch on that he were the reason that whether or not that Rei would rip someone apart, right here and now He knew Rei was a newly turned vampire, he didn’t know what they meant about their warning words, That hadn’t been done anything to him that they hadn’t exposed him too. Either way he choose for once listening to their warnings, as he felt he had no other choice but to do so. Mustering the little bit of strength he had left, he managed to push himself away from Rei. Enough to allow himself to slowly stand up on his staggering legs. Catching himself on the table, in an attempt to keep himself upright. His movements were hesitant as he shuffled towards his mother. But he barely even moved before his entire body gave in. His vision went blurry, and he felt himself stumble forward. Having no time to react before his entire world went black. 

Their mother catching him in time in her arms, holding him close so he wouldn’t fall to the ground and hurt himself. It wasn’t unexpected as his pulse mere seconds before had speed up from his movements, but was slowing down by the second as darkness had now taken him.

As Ritsu pushed himself off from Rei, the vampire fell silent, following the staggering movements of his brother with growing panic. Listening as his pulse sped up, warning about an incoming disaster. It took him no time to get up, reach for Ritsu, however he was stopped mid air. The older male blocking both his view and route towards him. 

“Ritsu!” He felt himself gasp for air as Ritsu collapsed in front of him, a painful yell leaving his lips, as he once again tried to push the other immortal out of the way. His heart was beating way too slow. They had to do something. They had to- 

A veil of red dragged across his eyes, as he felt his consciousness slip, a growl vibrating in his chest, as he fought. Anything to get to him- at least that had been the original goal. Now he was more keen on getting free. Writhe away the painful restraints he was put under. Strong hands keeping him locked in place. Forced to his knees, Rei kept his fangs flashed. At least until he heard the door fall shut. A panicked glance in the direction of the exit showing that Ritsu was gone. Again.

That finally put a damper on the frenzy, allowing him some sort of thought function again. Realizing that this someone was speaking to him. Through his mind. Words forming in his head on their own, although he was fairly certain that no sound aside from his own staggering breath originated from the room. 

Rei. That was certainly his own name. Repeated again, and again. In calming manner. Calling out to him, begging him to remember. Had he forgotten something? He wasn’t quite certain. However it was enough for his struggling to halter entirely, as he focused his mind. Remember... Remember what? 

The pain as blood burned through his throat, waking him from the serene slumber? The slow approach of darkness as he’d felt the life being literally drained out of his veins? The scared look in his brothers eyes, as he was forced to watch? The mindnumbing repeats of ritual words?

Ritsus unexpected arrival?

Of course Ritsu would be able to recognize them. His perception of reality hadn’t been altered, meaning that of course their parents were just as recognizable as always. However that didn’t mean he actually wanted them near at all. If only they could have stayed away, leaving them alone for even a moment longer. Was that too much to ask? 

He didn’t want to face their mother. Not when he knew fully well they hadn’t come to actually look for them both. It definitely felt like he had just been bumped a few steps further down the priority scale. Instead he would be selfish. Refusing to let go no matter what might be said to him. His fingers clutching tightly onto Rei’s clothes, enough for his fingers to start aching. 

Curling even closer to him, Ritsu refused to give up the little sense of comfort he felt. Knowing he from now on would be miles apart from Rei in every other aspect of life, he refused to let their parents pull them apart no as well. If his body had held any sense of fight left in it, he would have done more. 

But no. He were simply too tired, wanting nothing more than to pass out, as close to his brother as he possibly could. 

As Ritsu clinged closer to him, a low snarl made its way through his control, quickly escalating as the female vampire backed off. She seemed- Scared. Worried. As he felt part of his sanity breach trough yet again, he realized that she was in fact speaking to him - begging him to come to his senses. 

A cool chill ran through Rei, as he realized he’d been about to jump someone who’d done nothing to either of them. However the sheer reaction from Ritsu was enough to drive him into a corner. He’d known being a newly turned vampire would be troublesome - but not to this extent. It took him a few shaky breaths to calm down enough to not want to tear through her neck as she backed off. 

The male started speaking, telling him to get it together. All while Rei had very much gotten to that conclusion himself. What followed, however, made Rei widen his eyes slightly. As he was told to back off from Ritsu. As the female called out to his brother, urging him to come to her side, as if Rei would do something to him. In the first place he didn’t get why they cared so much about Ritsu. Or Rei for the matter.

Doesn’t mean he wouldn’t try to see if he could escape the family, Maybe he could use his fragile body as an excuse for he probably wouldn’t survive an embraces. Either way didn’t want to go through the Ritual with his father, neither having Rei as his Sire.  Raising his head when Rei stopped in the middle of the sentence. His head working over time as to late he noticed others presents within the room. His hands clenching the fabric in his hands, dropping his head on Rei shoulder.

He didn’t have enough strength to do anything, he just didn’t want to be separated from Rei right now, his childish heart want to be the only one in his focus, and right now anyone wasn’t welcome. His body tensing up again

Feeling Ritsu move closer to him, his head coming to rest on his shoulder, Rei relaxed. At least that settled that part of his questions. However it didn’t quite contain the pent up aggression, slowly seeping into his mind as the female vampire stepped into his field of vision. 

Flashing his fangs, he contained the growl, as to cause as little disturbance to Ritsu as possible. She spoke. Her voice seemed familiar as she called Reis name, leaning down towards them. Clearly trying to calm him. He couldn’t quite figure why he’d need to be though. As long as she kept her distance, not disturbing his brother, he’d be perfectly calm. 

He closed his eyes to finally let them rest, tears running down from the corner of his eyes as his body finally gave in. Taking the comfort he was given as he leaned his weight against Rei instead, grabbing on to his shirt as he wouldn’t let him run. He wanted them to stay together forever, he had just wished his brother could had stayed alive, as a human. He didn’t want the life as a vampire, even if he would have his brother for eternity he wouldn’t could handle watching Knights or any of his friends die, It would be lonely, scared that he would drive himself crazy because of it.

“Promise you won’t leave me.”

Sadly there was no way Rei would have been allowed to stay “alive”. He was bound to be turned sooner or later, just as Ritsu was. Being of the main family, there was no way their family would let them stay mere ghouls. 

“I won’t leave you. I’ll never leave you.” If needed, he’d spend the rest of eternity clinging annoyingly to Ritsus side. “I’m here for as long as you need me. And even past that. I’ll-” The sound of footsteps caught Reis attention, body tensing slightly, as he lifted his head to focus on the sound. 

Two people got closer, Rei, putting light pressure on Ritsus shoulder, securely holding him against him. Careful to not use too much of his strength as he listened to the door open. Someone called out to them. A female. 

Ritsu didn’t want him near, his mind wanted to push him away out of his life. If hit hadn’t been for his fragile body tying him to the family. He would had run a long time ago and never looked back. But instead he was caught in this. However he couldn’t help his body being a traitor, leaning into the comfort of what it knew, what it wanted. His head knew it was wrong, that this person was a monster, killing plenty of people right in front of him. But the touch and feeling, even if it was colder - It was still his older brother.

“Onii-chan” Whimpering his name as he forced himself to hold his breath for a few seconds, letting a deep breath out after, seeming to almost get his breath under control.

Rei could feel his breath get caught in his throat at the tiny whimper. How- What- When... When had his thoughts come to this? When had he succumbed to considering Ritsu as... A blood bag? Narrowing his eyes slightly, he shamed himself, before gently rubbing the back of his neck. Trying to ignore how warm his skin felt against Reis fingers.

His scent was so nice. So sweet. Taking a deep breath, he sharpened his mind,trying to recall happy memories. Force away the bloodthirst, as he tried to calm Ritsu.  

There was no sense to Rei words, He didn’t feel protected, he was exhausted to the bone. From freezing, shock and crying. He wanted to lean into the hand, he wanted to lean into the heat he would remember. But as he was touched it was only meet with cold. Forcing himself too take deep breath to calm his body down.

It didn’t last long with working on his breathing. His body twitching under the thought of him going through the same. Would he had to be humiliated like that in front of people? He could stand on a stage in front of thousands, but have to go through the same as Rei brought the tears back in his eyes. Curling back together to hide his face into his arms, curling back together again His pulse was too fast and his breathing turning superficial, as panic set into his body.

Rei shifted closer as Ritsu didn’t push him away, his panic wrapping an arm securely around him. Knowing that hin skin was slightly colder than it’d been when he was alive. Still he hoped Ritsu would somehow feel comfort in knowing that at least he was still alive. “Ritsu...”

Lowering his voice, Rei rested his head against Ritsus shoulder, gently nuzzling it through the layers of clothes. “I’m still here. You’ll be stuck with me forever now, okay? I won’t be going anywhere.”

However how much he would apologize it didn’t make up for the sight he have seen. Blood on the floor, the lifeless bodies on the floor of sacrifices and younger vampires. He knew it would come at some point that they would had to be turned. But he hadn’t expect it to turn out like that. How painful and how many lives would had to be lost. He had honestly hope it could be like those series where it was fast over. It felt like he had nothing to say, he couldn’t get angry, he couldn’t hit at him even if he wanted too. His body was drained. Ritsu wasn’t even sure if he could move if his wanted too. It was probably karma for not staying at the dinner. But he didn’t know if he would even had been able to keep the food in him if he had.

“I hate you..” Hate for not telling, hate for making him see, hate for loosing him forever, one thing was making sure of his own brother execution, another was seeing him actually be killed in front of him. His voice couldn’t even seem to hold any spite in it. All he wanted now was sleep

“I’m so sorry Ritsu. I... Wanted to protect you. But-” It’d been even worse if he had. At least he tried to tell himself that. Rei clenched his fists, digging his nails into his palms. “It’ll be okay, Ritsu. It’ll... Be okay. Somehow.” Seeing how drained he reacted, Rei slowly extended his hand, running it through Ritsus short hair. 

“I promise I’ll make yours easier on you. It’s just... The embrace of an heir is never easy on anyone.” If Ritsu even wanted to be turned at this point. Rei wouldn’t force him. Never. If he needed to, he’d face eternity alone, without his brother by his side. 

Hearing the steps nearing him, he could feel his breath getting stuck in his throat. A small hiccup leaving him yet again. as his body begged for oxygen, to breath other than the heavy air he had created under the cape. The table hadn’t been the best hiding place, but it was the only thing his mind could think off when his brain wasn’t working Raising his head slowly too look up at the newcomer, scarlet eyes red from crying, his face warm and wet from earlier tears. It was uncomfortable too look up. Watching what only seemed to be former shadow of his brother. It wasn’t first time he had watch him change, but this wasn’t his onii-chan this was a monster standing in front of him.

“ Leave me alone.” He whispered, his voice breaking. He only let his gaze glide over the newly vampire for a few seconds before he dropping his gaze too his feet. He didn’t want to look at this imposter. He wanted his big brother back.

Rei felt his throat tighten at Ritsus words, feeling the sting of tears, that wouldn’t come. Obviously. Crying wasn’t exactly an easy feat for a vampire - even a newly born. His tear ducts were clogged. And crying blood - he wasn’t exactly worked up enough to do that yet. Still it hurt to have Ritsu deny him. Although he couldn’t exactly saw that he didn’t understand.

“Ritsu... I’m sorry...” Rei felt his voice trail off, as he tried to apologize yet again. He wanted to get nearer to him. However he was painfully aware that Ritsu didn’t want him close. What he wanted was the past him. Like it’d been the year before. Like always. However this would truly be a hard fix. There was no way Rei would go back to be human again.

It had felt like an eternity he had been siting under the table, his body sore from holding the same position for who know how long. His eyes dried up, completely ran out of tears, his cheeks wet and flustered. How he wished he could just pass out or had passed out before it. Having all this just been a horrible nightmare and wake up in his comfy bed in Japan. But he never got the relief of sleep, no matter how heavy his eyelids felt and closing his eyes those moments replayed in his mind. He wasn’t sure what was the scariest. Having to watch older brother being drained from all life right before him. Or the rampaged monster lunging at him looking like having no intent but to kill. If he had anymore tears left they would surely be running again.

Sitting slumped against the wall, he had no energy left at all. His head were pounding and his entire body felt heavy. In a mixture of trying to distract his brain, and being absolutely terrified, he had been intently listening to any noises around him. Not wanting to be found anytime soon. He wasn’t even sure if anyone was looking for him it it came too it.

By the time he hear clear footsteps, he tensed up all over again. His brain told him to hide further, but his body weren’t cooperating. Even if he wanted to run away to somewhere else, he simply didn’t have the energy to actually get up. Instead he curled up further. Looking like no more than a shaking ball under the table, covered in the thick cape. Hearing the sound of Rei voice he wasn’t sure if he still was awake or dreaming, one thing was for sure he could feel his heart beat faster in his chest, the sight of the monster appear in front of him again.

He was afraid. Rei could feel his the fear in the air. It was heavy enough that he was certain it’d affect his breathing - if he still needed it that was. However Rei still walked closer, calling out yet again as Ritsu tensed instead of replying. He didn’t need to see him, in order to tell his placement beneath the table.

Rei placed a hand on the table, as he made his way around it, kneeling down on the side to not block Ritsu out. Resting his head against the table leg as he settled, scarlet eyes studying the tiny ball of capes. He wanted to reach out to him, yet he felt something stopping him.  Instead he fell silent, trying to catch a glimpse of his brothers face.

Koga were fast. Even more so, since this were one of the very rare situations where he had left his beloved guitar in the light music club. It were far easier having to chase someone down, when you didn’t have to worry about your most priced possession. 

By the time he reached the stairs, he went straight for the handle and braced his hands on it as he leaned over to look down at the floor under. He practically had twinkles in his eyes. “wow…. That was so cool!” 

Rei truly were the coolest person ever! 

Knowing he shouldn’t attempt the same jump, he instead made for the actual stair. Skipping steps as he practically flew down them. Once he were within reasonable distance of the floor underneath, he jumped on the rail and glided the rest of the way down. Landing firmly on the ground before setting off again. He even sniffed the air once more to make sure of the direction. 

He only really did stop as he found himself standing right in front of Rei. Visibly breathing hard from running, but absolutely beaming nonetheless. “That was amazing! You gotta teach me that jump!” 

  Rei could almost spot the way the first year wagged his tale before he got into view. A light frown resting on his lips, as the puppy excitedly jumped before him, voice slightly shaking. A low sigh left his chest, as he crossed his arms, finally facing the ecstatic fan.