liberator.

Tessa Thompson photographed for BUNCH Magazine

“They won’t show mercy. Neither can we.”

❛ I’ve gone to being his bitch to yours. ❜ ❛ Mediocrity is not an option for me. I don’t want that and neither should you. ❜ ❛ I got here because I managed to escape you. ❜ ❛ If I only went where I was welcomed, I’d never leave the house. ❜ ❛ Are you still getting married? ❜ ❛ Do you want me to get married? ❜ ❛ He has a weakness. If I exploit it, maybe I can get information out of him/her. ❜ ❛ For a screw up, you’re actually very bright. ❜ ❛ Don’t insult me by lying to my face. ❜ ❛ I’m done. I told you we’re done. We’re over. ❜ ❛ You do not summon me! ❜ ❛ She’s/he’s perfect. But she’s not you. ❜ ❛ Do not tell me what I have to do. You don’t get to do that anymore. ❜ ❛ Screw as many whores as you want. I wouldn’t expect anything less. ❜ ❛ Do you not understand that when the monster gets hungry he will turn around and eat you? ❜ ❛ I’m playing the game and I’m playing it better than anyone. ❜ ❛ You’re one creepy bastard, you know that? ❜ ❛ The truth of the matter is that I’ll never love anyone as much as I love you. You have never chosen me. We’ve done horrible things to one another, but for some reason, I still end up here in front of you… Looking at you. Wanting you. In love with you. ❜ ❛ I don’t want to marry her. I want to be with you. Do you want to be with me? ❜ ❛ I want us to stand in the sun together. ❜ ❛ The only difference is that I’m in love with you. Some people would call that a defect. ❜ ❛ I asked you to save me… and you said no. ❜ ❛ I am better than you. ❜ ❛ When you walk in here, you make me hope. ❜ ❛ We’re not ever going to be over. I am never going to be over you. ❜ ❛ If you want me, earn me! ❜ ❛ Come back to me. Forgive me. I love you. ❜ ❛ I think you believe that I will never choose you. ❜ ❛ Call my bluff. I dare you. ❜ ❛ I may not be able to control my erections around you, but that does not mean I want you. ❜ ❛ It’s you. You’re difficult. ❜ ❛ It’s because you found your precious _____ doesn’t have the secrets of the universe tucked between her magical thighs. That she’s just a person like everyone else and that she’s capable of using you like everyone else. ❜ ❛ You’re not you anymore. You know who you are? You know who you’ve become? You’re your father. ❜ ❛ Go screw yourself. And when you’re done with that, you can go straight to hell and screw yourself there. ❜ ❛ I am not a murderer and I am not a liar, and I am not going anywhere. So the sooner you get over it, the better. ❜ ❛ You ruined me. I’m ruined! ❜ ❛ You own me! You control me! I belong to you! You think I don’t want to be a better man? You don’t think that I want to dedicate myself to my marriage? ❜ ❛ I love you. I’m in love with you. You are the love of my life. My every feeling is controlled by the look on your face. I can’t breathe without you. I can’t sleep without you. I wait for you, I watch for you. I exist for you. If I could escape all of this and run away with you… ❜ ❛ I wasn’t thinking about you. I don’t think about you. ❜ ❛ Marriage can wreak havoc on a person. ❜ ❛ Please stop. Please stop getting my hopes up. ❜ ❛ What? Did you think you’d find me drunk and playing Russian Roulette? ❜ ❛ You are the biggest bitch I know. Don’t tell me you can’t do this. ❜ ❛ There’s no gratitude in parenting. I don’t know why we do it. ❜ ❛ You should never apologize for being you. ❜ ❛ You should know… I hope you know… I did my best for you. I take tremendous pride in who you have become. ❜ ❛ This isn’t you. You are a measly little troll and I don’t like you, and I do not respect you, and I think you’re pathetic. ❜ ❛ The plan is to find him, and when I do, I”m going to look him in the eye and put a bullet in his head. ❜ ❛ How does someone as brilliant, as accomplished as you, not know what you are, who you are? ❜ ❛ You’re not ready. And you never will be. ❜ ❛ We should’ve locked ourselves in a room together and gotten drunk years ago. ❜ ❛ I haven’t had this much fun spending the night with a woman in, hell, ever. ❜ ❛ You’re complimenting me. Is this some new, genius way of putting the screws to me? ❜ ❛ I wish we’d never met. But we did. And I tried… I tried and failed. And tried and failed again to hide… To stop loving him. But I couldn’t. I was weak. I hated myself. I wore this ring to remind myself of my weakness. ❜ ❛ This is amazing. She has actually managed to go from being a slut, to being an every-woman, to being your sister-wife in under 48 hours. I didn’t even know that was possible. ❜ ❛ I’m damaged. She doesn’t like to yell at me. ❜ ❛ You took in a wild monster and you groomed me and petted me and trained me to sit at your feet. But that doesn’t mean I’m a puppy. That just makes me a very loyal monster. So I don’t go too far. I went exactly as far as my leash allows and you hold the leash. You went too far. ❜ ❛ You should’ve never given me someone to love. Monsters eat people. It’s what we do. ❜ ❛ It’s a gesture. It means I’m sorry. People get coffee when they’re sorry. I can get you tea instead. ❜ ❛ Stock your damn fridge. If I’m going to be your fake boyfriend/girlfriend all day, I’m going to come home at the end of it and drink real beer and eat real food. ❜ ❛ You have no idea how my world works. ❜ ❛ Girls like to me kissed first, right? Romance them a little before you drive right into their pants. ❜ ❛ One, I am not a hen. Two, I am not a prize at the state fair. You cannot win me! ❜ ❛ Life is unfortunate. Random. Coincidental. Bad things happen to good people all the time. ❜ ❛ Run away with me. Save me. ❜ ❛ I lie in bed every night and I play our relationship over and over again in my head like a movie. We meet. We fall in love. We can’t stop ourselves. We’re meant to be. I give up everything inside of me and then it stops. The movie just stops. I don’t know how it ends. ❜ ❛ The last thing this needs is another sex scandal. Stay away from her. ❜ ❛ I don’t want us to fight anymore. If you don’t hurt me, I won’t hurt you. ❜ ❛ Oh look, it’s the girl who can’t shut her legs or her mouth. ❜ ❛ You’ve always been the other guy and the whats-his-name. Good, fine, but never great. We both know the reason they call it a race, the reason there is a winner, is because someone wins. And it’s never you. ❜ ❛ Whew. We sleep better when she’s lying between us. ❜ ❛ I am not a toy you can play with when you’re bored or lonely or horny. I am not the girl the guy gets at the end of the movie. I am not a fantasy. If you want me, earn me. Until then, we are done. ❜ ❛ The irony is he/she chose you because he thought you would be loyal. ❜ ❛ Want me to have the chef send you up some fried chicken? ❜ ❛ Let’s face it, baby. This is all about you. And you just want me to play my part as the co-star, the dutiful wife who smiles and acts proud of you. ❜ ❛ I kept my distance from you because I was terrified of what he might be. Turns out he was yours the whole time. But he was always mine, or at least he should’ve been. ❜ ❛ If we’re going to die, can we do it now so I don’t have to listen to the two of you? ❜ ❛ It’s my turn! He suffers. He hurts. He  burns. I’m tired of carrying the cross. Let him pick it up now. ❜ ❛ I want his head in the fire and I want to see him burn. I want to hand him the one piece of news that will destroy him and I want to watch his face when it happens. ❜ ❛ Somebody out there wants me dead. ❜ ❛ Don’t patronize me like I’m some hysterical teenage girl at the beginning of my cycle. ❜ ❛ It hurts until it doesn’t. You think it’s going to break you, but it won’t. You may not sleep as well at night, but you will be fine. Numb, but numb and fine are the same. ❜ ❛ You’re worried about him cheating on me? That’s… oddly sweet. ❜ ❛ I’d say this a new low. ❜ ❛ You don’t have to love me, but we are in this hell together and the flames are burning both of us with equal intensity, baby, so the least you can do is be my friend. ❜ ❛ I just don’t understand why I have to apologize for his affair. ❜ ❛ Give any piece of trailer trash a push-up bra and a microphone and those stupid flyovers will eat it up like fried Twinkies. ❜ ❛ As long as she’s still alive, well, she’s your flaw. Your Achilles heel. Which makes her my weapon. ❜ ❛ So cheers, baby. Drink up. I live to fight another day. ❜ ❛ I’d lose… Our little war, I’d lose. ❜ ❛ That’s impossible. A lady never gets drunk. ❜ ❛ You’re drunk, _____. ❜ ❛ The upsetting thing about being as educated as I am and as intelligent as I am is that being the First Lady is profoundly boring. ❜ ❛ Aren’t you part of ‘they’ now? One-third of some secret, unholy trinity? ❜ ❛ This is me being in love with another woman. ❜ ❛ Does it ever bother you? All the lies, all the pretending? And that’s not an accusation cause I do it too and I do it well. ❜ ❛ She’s perfect, but she is not you. ❜ ❛ You are the one I like to ride, but no one will ever ride you like I do. ❜ ❛ I’m just a twisted sociopath who gets what she wants, no matter who gets bulldozed along the way. ❜ ❛ I can’t do this… Be with you. I can’t be with you. I’m sorry. ❜ ❛ You love me. You love me! ❜ ❛ I can’t be with you. It’s not even that I can’t, I don’t want to. ❜ ❛ You’re not good enough for me. ❜ ❛ You’re weak. You need me too much. Need me to tell you what to do and how to feel and– you were never an option for me. ❜ ❛ You’re an escape, someone to toy with. You’re a yo-yo, a booty call, a side piece. ❜ ❛ Frankly, it’s embarrassing that you still haven’t realized, after all this time, that if we were together – actually together – I would tear right through you. Destroy you. ❜ ❛ You’re scared of what we have… Of having something real. ❜ ❛ You’re wrong. I’m not scared. I may be horrible, because I’m abandoning you, because I always abandon you, but I’m not scared. Not the least bit. ❜ ❛ You’re wrong. And pathetic. ❜ ❛ I could tell you five minutes from now that I want to be with you, that I want to save you… You would crawl back to me, forgive me, every single time. ❜ ❛ He is who I choose. He is who I will always choose. You are just a lesser version of him, a sad reminder of the man I truly deserve. ❜ ❛ I will slit his throat. If he learns that I’m the one who made you break his heart, that too will force me to slit his throat. ❜ ❛ If I were you, I would pick up whatever chips I have left and run. ❜ ❛ I’m sorry, the truth does not work. It does not work for me. ❜ ❛ If you try to tell that disgusting fairytale, I will make such a scene. ❜ ❛ I will open up our closet and I will pull out our dirty laundry with the world. I am that tired. ❜ ❛ What’d you call me? Ornamental? Not functional? I am a rose dying on a vine here. ❜ ❛ You missed out on your happy ending today. ❜ ❛ Her being blown to bits… That’s your dream, isn’t it? ❜ ❛ I am spectacular, but I can’t compete with religious fervor. ❜ ❛ I thought, hey! Let’s get some estrogen in here, see what happens! ❜ ❛ What’s wrong? What’s wrong? What is wrong? This is my life! That is what’s wrong! ❜ ❛ I am tired of doing everything myself! I am alone here! ❜ ❛ Let’s not pretend we’re something we’re not. ❜ ❛ If you knew the sacrifices I have made, the things I have given up, and the pieces of myself that I have given away for you… and you treat me this way? You declare war on me and you shame me and you make me beg for scraps when I have done nothing but fight for you. ❜ ❛ When I was faced with the chance to cheat, I kept my knees together and I said no. ❜ ❛ What does it feel like? To be so hot for someone, to be so turned-on by them that you would put everything you ever worked for at risk? Does it feel good? Is it an amazing high? ❜ ❛ Really? So me sticking my fingers down your throat, that was what, a typical Tuesday night? ❜ ❛ Do you want me to thank you? Thank you for saving me from my sad little suicide attempt? ❜ ❛ Are you insane like him, or just stupid? ❜ ❛ You’re ornamental. Not functional. So don’t come in here and try to use your brain because no one cares! ❜ ❛ You always did know just the right way to hurt me. ❜ ❛ Relax, I’m kidding… For now. ❜ ❛ I’m sick of smiling. I’m sick of acting like we’re happy. ❜ ❛ She’s not my mistress anymore, so buck up. You won. ❜ ❛ We can’t always get what we want, can we? ❜ ❛ I thought you tried to kill me, the night I was shot. ❜ ❛ I would never try to kill you. ❜ ❛ You’re the only one who has always been honest who you were. ❜ ❛ Do you love me? Enough to… to be on my side? No matter what happens. ❜ ❛ I have never left my side. You left mine, but I never left yours. ❜ ❛ And yes, I do love you. No matter what. I have always loved you. No matter what. ❜ ❛ We’re in this together, okay? We have to be in this together because I don’t have anybody else. I don’t. You’re all I have. ❜ ❛ It’s you and me. ❜ ❛ I am not some man acting out of rage and then thinking later. I am a woman. ❜ ❛ We tip toe around, figuring out how to get on your good side… But you don’t have a good side. ❜ ❛ Put another glass of Scotch on top of it and just deal with it. ❜ ❛ Pretending is what’s real. Every married couple alive pretends. ❜ ❛ Buying into the delusion that there’s any way to live together, to get through an entire life together, that’s… Well, that’s the fantasy. That’s pretending. ❜ ❛ You did this! You ruined our relationship! You killed us! You killed us, _____. Don’t you see that? Don’t you see what you did? We never had a chance. ❜ ❛ You think you’re family, but you’re nothing but the help. And you don’t even know it. ❜ ❛ But thank you… for reminding me that when I decide to kill you, I need to do it all by myself. ❜ ❛ So you can cheat and I can’t? Is that it? Well, that is one hell of a double standard. ❜ ❛ Well, guess what. You’re alone! The path that you walk is not my path. The shoes that you stand in are not my shoes. We are not equals, nor will we ever be. You are a-lone! ❜ ❛ You! You ruined our relationship! You shut me down. You locked the door. You killed us. ❜ ❛ I never blamed you. It wasn’t your fault you didn’t want me. “Poor ____. My poor wife’s dried up. She can’t control her body or libido.” But it turns out that was a lie. ❜ ❛ It wasn’t that you didn’t want sex, it was that you didn’t want me because you’re all hot and bothered for ______. ❜ ❛ I have spent all this time feeling guilty, feeling like a monster, feeling like I broke us! But it was you. ❜ ❛ How does this go? What are the rules? ❜ ❛ When you licked my face, when you put your tongue on my cheek, apparently that was just what you needed to get in the mood to rip my molars out, right? ❜ ❛ You put your tongue in my mouth, and now I deserve to live? That’s a thing? That’s how it goes? ❜

I like things that are classic and understated, but I also have a side of me that loves things that are wild, so I am always trying to find a marriage between the two. I hate the idea of anything being too trendy or boxed into one space. (x)

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Tessa Thompson attends the premiere of Disney Pictures and Lucasfilm’s ‘Star Wars: The Last Jedi’ at The Shrine Auditorium on December 9, 2017 in Los Angeles, California.

❛ I’ve gone to being his bitch to yours. ❜ ❛ Mediocrity is not an option for me. I don’t want that and neither should you. ❜ ❛ I got here because I managed to escape you. ❜ ❛ If I only went where I was welcomed, I’d never leave the house. ❜ ❛ Are you still getting married? ❜ ❛ Do you want me to get married? ❜ ❛ He has a weakness. If I exploit it, maybe I can get information out of him/her. ❜ ❛ For a screw up, you’re actually very bright. ❜ ❛ Don’t insult me by lying to my face. ❜ ❛ I’m done. I told you we’re done. We’re over. ❜ ❛ You do not summon me! ❜ ❛ She’s/he’s perfect. But she’s not you. ❜ ❛ Do not tell me what I have to do. You don’t get to do that anymore. ❜ ❛ Screw as many whores as you want. I wouldn’t expect anything less. ❜ ❛ Do you not understand that when the monster gets hungry he will turn around and eat you? ❜ ❛ I’m playing the game and I’m playing it better than anyone. ❜ ❛ You’re one creepy bastard, you know that? ❜ ❛ The truth of the matter is that I’ll never love anyone as much as I love you. You have never chosen me. We’ve done horrible things to one another, but for some reason, I still end up here in front of you… Looking at you. Wanting you. In love with you. ❜ ❛ I don’t want to marry her. I want to be with you. Do you want to be with me? ❜ ❛ I want us to stand in the sun together. ❜ ❛ The only difference is that I’m in love with you. Some people would call that a defect. ❜ ❛ I asked you to save me… and you said no. ❜ ❛ I am better than you. ❜ ❛ When you walk in here, you make me hope. ❜ ❛ We’re not ever going to be over. I am never going to be over you. ❜ ❛ If you want me, earn me! ❜ ❛ Come back to me. Forgive me. I love you. ❜ ❛ I think you believe that I will never choose you. ❜ ❛ Call my bluff. I dare you. ❜ ❛ I may not be able to control my erections around you, but that does not mean I want you. ❜ ❛ It’s you. You’re difficult. ❜ ❛ It’s because you found your precious _____ doesn’t have the secrets of the universe tucked between her magical thighs. That she’s just a person like everyone else and that she’s capable of using you like everyone else. ❜ ❛ You’re not you anymore. You know who you are? You know who you’ve become? You’re your father. ❜ ❛ Go screw yourself. And when you’re done with that, you can go straight to hell and screw yourself there. ❜ ❛ I am not a murderer and I am not a liar, and I am not going anywhere. So the sooner you get over it, the better. ❜ ❛ You ruined me. I’m ruined! ❜ ❛ You own me! You control me! I belong to you! You think I don’t want to be a better man? You don’t think that I want to dedicate myself to my marriage? ❜ ❛ I love you. I’m in love with you. You are the love of my life. My every feeling is controlled by the look on your face. I can’t breathe without you. I can’t sleep without you. I wait for you, I watch for you. I exist for you. If I could escape all of this and run away with you… ❜ ❛ I wasn’t thinking about you. I don’t think about you. ❜ ❛ Marriage can wreak havoc on a person. ❜ ❛ Please stop. Please stop getting my hopes up. ❜ ❛ What? Did you think you’d find me drunk and playing Russian Roulette? ❜ ❛ You are the biggest bitch I know. Don’t tell me you can’t do this. ❜ ❛ There’s no gratitude in parenting. I don’t know why we do it. ❜ ❛ You should never apologize for being you. ❜ ❛ You should know… I hope you know… I did my best for you. I take tremendous pride in who you have become. ❜ ❛ This isn’t you. You are a measly little troll and I don’t like you, and I do not respect you, and I think you’re pathetic. ❜ ❛ The plan is to find him, and when I do, I”m going to look him in the eye and put a bullet in his head. ❜ ❛ How does someone as brilliant, as accomplished as you, not know what you are, who you are? ❜ ❛ You’re not ready. And you never will be. ❜ ❛ We should’ve locked ourselves in a room together and gotten drunk years ago. ❜ ❛ I haven’t had this much fun spending the night with a woman in, hell, ever. ❜ ❛ You’re complimenting me. Is this some new, genius way of putting the screws to me? ❜ ❛ I wish we’d never met. But we did. And I tried… I tried and failed. And tried and failed again to hide… To stop loving him. But I couldn’t. I was weak. I hated myself. I wore this ring to remind myself of my weakness. ❜ ❛ This is amazing. She has actually managed to go from being a slut, to being an every-woman, to being your sister-wife in under 48 hours. I didn’t even know that was possible. ❜ ❛ I’m damaged. She doesn’t like to yell at me. ❜ ❛ You took in a wild monster and you groomed me and petted me and trained me to sit at your feet. But that doesn’t mean I’m a puppy. That just makes me a very loyal monster. So I don’t go too far. I went exactly as far as my leash allows and you hold the leash. You went too far. ❜ ❛ You should’ve never given me someone to love. Monsters eat people. It’s what we do. ❜ ❛ It’s a gesture. It means I’m sorry. People get coffee when they’re sorry. I can get you tea instead. ❜ ❛ Stock your damn fridge. If I’m going to be your fake boyfriend/girlfriend all day, I’m going to come home at the end of it and drink real beer and eat real food. ❜ ❛ You have no idea how my world works. ❜ ❛ Girls like to me kissed first, right? Romance them a little before you drive right into their pants. ❜ ❛ One, I am not a hen. Two, I am not a prize at the state fair. You cannot win me! ❜ ❛ Life is unfortunate. Random. Coincidental. Bad things happen to good people all the time. ❜ ❛ Run away with me. Save me. ❜ ❛ I lie in bed every night and I play our relationship over and over again in my head like a movie. We meet. We fall in love. We can’t stop ourselves. We’re meant to be. I give up everything inside of me and then it stops. The movie just stops. I don’t know how it ends. ❜ ❛ The last thing this needs is another sex scandal. Stay away from her. ❜ ❛ I don’t want us to fight anymore. If you don’t hurt me, I won’t hurt you. ❜ ❛ Oh look, it’s the girl who can’t shut her legs or her mouth. ❜ ❛ You’ve always been the other guy and the whats-his-name. Good, fine, but never great. We both know the reason they call it a race, the reason there is a winner, is because someone wins. And it’s never you. ❜ ❛ Whew. We sleep better when she’s lying between us. ❜ ❛ I am not a toy you can play with when you’re bored or lonely or horny. I am not the girl the guy gets at the end of the movie. I am not a fantasy. If you want me, earn me. Until then, we are done. ❜ ❛ The irony is he/she chose you because he thought you would be loyal. ❜ ❛ Want me to have the chef send you up some fried chicken? ❜ ❛ Let’s face it, baby. This is all about you. And you just want me to play my part as the co-star, the dutiful wife who smiles and acts proud of you. ❜ ❛ I kept my distance from you because I was terrified of what he might be. Turns out he was yours the whole time. But he was always mine, or at least he should’ve been. ❜ ❛ If we’re going to die, can we do it now so I don’t have to listen to the two of you? ❜ ❛ It’s my turn! He suffers. He hurts. He  burns. I’m tired of carrying the cross. Let him pick it up now. ❜ ❛ I want his head in the fire and I want to see him burn. I want to hand him the one piece of news that will destroy him and I want to watch his face when it happens. ❜ ❛ Somebody out there wants me dead. ❜ ❛ Don’t patronize me like I’m some hysterical teenage girl at the beginning of my cycle. ❜ ❛ It hurts until it doesn’t. You think it’s going to break you, but it won’t. You may not sleep as well at night, but you will be fine. Numb, but numb and fine are the same. ❜ ❛ You’re worried about him cheating on me? That’s… oddly sweet. ❜ ❛ I’d say this a new low. ❜ ❛ You don’t have to love me, but we are in this hell together and the flames are burning both of us with equal intensity, baby, so the least you can do is be my friend. ❜ ❛ I just don’t understand why I have to apologize for his affair. ❜ ❛ Give any piece of trailer trash a push-up bra and a microphone and those stupid flyovers will eat it up like fried Twinkies. ❜ ❛ As long as she’s still alive, well, she’s your flaw. Your Achilles heel. Which makes her my weapon. ❜ ❛ So cheers, baby. Drink up. I live to fight another day. ❜ ❛ I’d lose… Our little war, I’d lose. ❜ ❛ That’s impossible. A lady never gets drunk. ❜ ❛ You’re drunk, _____. ❜ ❛ The upsetting thing about being as educated as I am and as intelligent as I am is that being the First Lady is profoundly boring. ❜ ❛ Aren’t you part of ‘they’ now? One-third of some secret, unholy trinity? ❜ ❛ This is me being in love with another woman. ❜ ❛ Does it ever bother you? All the lies, all the pretending? And that’s not an accusation cause I do it too and I do it well. ❜ ❛ She’s perfect, but she is not you. ❜ ❛ You are the one I like to ride, but no one will ever ride you like I do. ❜ ❛ I’m just a twisted sociopath who gets what she wants, no matter who gets bulldozed along the way. ❜ ❛ I can’t do this… Be with you. I can’t be with you. I’m sorry. ❜ ❛ You love me. You love me! ❜ ❛ I can’t be with you. It’s not even that I can’t, I don’t want to. ❜ ❛ You’re not good enough for me. ❜ ❛ You’re weak. You need me too much. Need me to tell you what to do and how to feel and– you were never an option for me. ❜ ❛ You’re an escape, someone to toy with. You’re a yo-yo, a booty call, a side piece. ❜ ❛ Frankly, it’s embarrassing that you still haven’t realized, after all this time, that if we were together – actually together – I would tear right through you. Destroy you. ❜ ❛ You’re scared of what we have… Of having something real. ❜ ❛ You’re wrong. I’m not scared. I may be horrible, because I’m abandoning you, because I always abandon you, but I’m not scared. Not the least bit. ❜ ❛ You’re wrong. And pathetic. ❜ ❛ I could tell you five minutes from now that I want to be with you, that I want to save you… You would crawl back to me, forgive me, every single time. ❜ ❛ He is who I choose. He is who I will always choose. You are just a lesser version of him, a sad reminder of the man I truly deserve. ❜ ❛ I will slit his throat. If he learns that I’m the one who made you break his heart, that too will force me to slit his throat. ❜ ❛ If I were you, I would pick up whatever chips I have left and run. ❜ ❛ I’m sorry, the truth does not work. It does not work for me. ❜ ❛ If you try to tell that disgusting fairytale, I will make such a scene. ❜ ❛ I will open up our closet and I will pull out our dirty laundry with the world. I am that tired. ❜ ❛ What’d you call me? Ornamental? Not functional? I am a rose dying on a vine here. ❜ ❛ You missed out on your happy ending today. ❜ ❛ Her being blown to bits… That’s your dream, isn’t it? ❜ ❛ I am spectacular, but I can’t compete with religious fervor. ❜ ❛ I thought, hey! Let’s get some estrogen in here, see what happens! ❜ ❛ What’s wrong? What’s wrong? What is wrong? This is my life! That is what’s wrong! ❜ ❛ I am tired of doing everything myself! I am alone here! ❜ ❛ Let’s not pretend we’re something we’re not. ❜ ❛ If you knew the sacrifices I have made, the things I have given up, and the pieces of myself that I have given away for you… and you treat me this way? You declare war on me and you shame me and you make me beg for scraps when I have done nothing but fight for you. ❜ ❛ When I was faced with the chance to cheat, I kept my knees together and I said no. ❜ ❛ What does it feel like? To be so hot for someone, to be so turned-on by them that you would put everything you ever worked for at risk? Does it feel good? Is it an amazing high? ❜ ❛ Really? So me sticking my fingers down your throat, that was what, a typical Tuesday night? ❜ ❛ Do you want me to thank you? Thank you for saving me from my sad little suicide attempt? ❜ ❛ Are you insane like him, or just stupid? ❜ ❛ You’re ornamental. Not functional. So don’t come in here and try to use your brain because no one cares! ❜ ❛ You always did know just the right way to hurt me. ❜ ❛ Relax, I’m kidding… For now. ❜ ❛ I’m sick of smiling. I’m sick of acting like we’re happy. ❜ ❛ She’s not my mistress anymore, so buck up. You won. ❜ ❛ We can’t always get what we want, can we? ❜ ❛ I thought you tried to kill me, the night I was shot. ❜ ❛ I would never try to kill you. ❜ ❛ You’re the only one who has always been honest who you were. ❜ ❛ Do you love me? Enough to… to be on my side? No matter what happens. ❜ ❛ I have never left my side. You left mine, but I never left yours. ❜ ❛ And yes, I do love you. No matter what. I have always loved you. No matter what. ❜ ❛ We’re in this together, okay? We have to be in this together because I don’t have anybody else. I don’t. You’re all I have. ❜ ❛ It’s you and me. ❜ ❛ I am not some man acting out of rage and then thinking later. I am a woman. ❜ ❛ We tip toe around, figuring out how to get on your good side… But you don’t have a good side. ❜ ❛ Put another glass of Scotch on top of it and just deal with it. ❜ ❛ Pretending is what’s real. Every married couple alive pretends. ❜ ❛ Buying into the delusion that there’s any way to live together, to get through an entire life together, that’s… Well, that’s the fantasy. That’s pretending. ❜ ❛ You did this! You ruined our relationship! You killed us! You killed us, _____. Don’t you see that? Don’t you see what you did? We never had a chance. ❜ ❛ You think you’re family, but you’re nothing but the help. And you don’t even know it. ❜ ❛ But thank you… for reminding me that when I decide to kill you, I need to do it all by myself. ❜ ❛ So you can cheat and I can’t? Is that it? Well, that is one hell of a double standard. ❜ ❛ Well, guess what. You’re alone! The path that you walk is not my path. The shoes that you stand in are not my shoes. We are not equals, nor will we ever be. You are a-lone! ❜ ❛ You! You ruined our relationship! You shut me down. You locked the door. You killed us. ❜ ❛ I never blamed you. It wasn’t your fault you didn’t want me. “Poor ____. My poor wife’s dried up. She can’t control her body or libido.” But it turns out that was a lie. ❜ ❛ It wasn’t that you didn’t want sex, it was that you didn’t want me because you’re all hot and bothered for ______. ❜ ❛ I have spent all this time feeling guilty, feeling like a monster, feeling like I broke us! But it was you. ❜ ❛ How does this go? What are the rules? ❜ ❛ When you licked my face, when you put your tongue on my cheek, apparently that was just what you needed to get in the mood to rip my molars out, right? ❜ ❛ You put your tongue in my mouth, and now I deserve to live? That’s a thing? That’s how it goes? ❜

                BONES  are our last and best witness   ;   they never lie,  and they never forget.         /          est.  12/2/17.  penned by tia.

I’ve spent years, in a haze, trying to forget my past.

❝ On your left. ❞ ❝ Don’t say it. Don’t you say it. ❞ ❝ Need a medic? ❞ ❝ You should be ashamed of yourself. ❞ ❝ It’s your bed, right? ❞ ❝ You must miss the good old days, huh? ❞ ❝ I’ll put it on the list. ❞ ❝ I’m sure they have a good reason. ❞ ❝ Relax, it’s not that complicated. ❞ ❝ You doing anything fun Saturday night? ❞ ❝ You know, if you ask Kristen out, from Statistics, she’d probably say yes. ❞ ❝ Too shy, or too scared? ❞ ❝ You seemed pretty helpless without me. ❞ ❝ You want to be a hero? Is that it? ❞ ❝ Well, this is awkward. ❞ ❝ I think that’s overstating things. ❞ ❝ You just can’t stop yourself from lying, can you? ❞ ❝ I’m not obliged to do anything. ❞ ❝ It’s called compartmentalisation. ❞ ❝ Nobody spills the secrets, because nobody knows them all. ❞ ❝ I do share. I’m nice like that. ❞ ❝ I thought the punishment usually came after the crime. ❞ ❝ We can’t afford to wait that long. ❞ ❝ This isn’t freedom, this is fear. ❞ ❝ For as long as I can remember, I just wanted to do what was right. ❞ ❝ You’re always so dramatic. ❞ ❝ The world has changed, and none of us can go back. ❞ ❝ Sometimes the best that we can do is to start over. ❞ ❝ I’m here to ask a favor. ❞ ❝ You lose someone? ❞ ❝ What makes you happy? ❞ ❝ If you want, you’re welcome to use my machine. Might be cheaper than the one in the basement. ❞ ❝ Well, I’ll keep my distance. ❞ ❝ I don’t remember giving you a key. ❞ ❝ My wife kicked me out. ❞ ❝ I didn’t know you were married. ❞ ❝ There’s a lot of things you don’t know about me. ❞ ❝ You’re a terrible liar. ❞ ❝ He told me not to trust anyone. ❞ ❝ Anyone gets in my way, they’re gonna regret it. ❞ ❝ It kind of feels personal. ❞ ❝ I only act like I know everything. ❞ ❝ I’m not gonna ask you again. ❞ ❝ Bye-bye, bikinis. ❞ ❝ First rule of going on the run is don’t run, walk. ❞ ❝ My fiancé was just helping me with some honeymoon destinations. ❞ ❝ I have the exact same glasses. ❞ ❝ Shut up and put your arm around me. Laugh at something I said. ❞ ❝ Kiss me. ❞ ❝ Public displays of affection make people very uncomfortable. ❞ ❝ I just wondered how much practice you’ve had. ❞ ❝ Nobody special, though? ❞ ❝ Believe it or not, it’s kind of hard to find someone with shared life experience. ❞ ❝ You just make something up. ❞ ❝ The truth is a matter of circumstance. ❞ ❝ That’s a tough way to live. ❞ ❝ You know, it’s kind of hard to trust someone, when you don’t know who that someone really is. ❞ ❝ Who do you want me to be? ❞ ❝ Who’s the girl? ❞ ❝ You need anything before I leave? ❞ ❝ Want some milk? ❞ ❝ I thought I knew whose lies I was telling, but I guess I can’t tell the difference anymore. ❞ ❝ There’s a chance you might be in the wrong business. ❞ ❝ If it was down to me to save your life, would you trust me to do it? ❞ ❝ I hear the crab cakes here are delicious. ❞ ❝ That is a terrible, terrible idea. ❞ ❝ I wasn’t sure who to trust. ❞ ❝ Your work has been a gift to mankind. ❞ ❝ You shaped the century. ❞ ❝ Society’s at a tipping point between order and chaos. ❞ ❝ If you don’t do your part, I can’t do mine. ❞ ❝ See, it’s stuff like this that gives me trust issues. ❞ ❝ I just kind of wanted to be alone. ❞ ❝ We can put the couch cushions on the floor like when we were kids. ❞ ❝ I’m with you to the end of the line, pal. ❞ ❝ I don’t know if I can do that. ❞ ❝ I think it’s time you know the truth. ❞ ❝ The price of freedom is high. ❞ ❝ Did you write that down first, or was it off the top of your head? ❞ ❝ You smug son of a bitch. ❞ ❝ I’m sorry, did I step on your moment? ❞ ❝ Are you sure you’re ready for the world to see you as you really are? ❞ ❝ Did you get my flowers? ❞ ❝ You’re the best and the most ruthless person I ever met. ❞ ❝ You know, you’re a lot heavier than you look. ❞ ❝ I had a big breakfast. ❞ ❝ Please don’t make me do this. ❞ ❝ Unless you want a two-inch hole in your sternum, I’d put that gun down. ❞ ❝ This is gonna hurt. ❞ ❝ Man, shut the hell up. ❞ ❝ You know, there was a time I would’ve taken a bullet for you. ❞ ❝ You’re out of your depth, kid. ❞ ❝ I’m not gonna fight you. ❞ ❝ You’re my friend. ❞ ❝ You’re not going to put me in a prison. ❞ ❝ You’ll know where to find me. ❞ ❝ I’m headed to Europe tonight, Wanted to ask if you’d come. ❞ ❝ You might not want to pull on that thread. ❞ ❝ This is the age of miracles. ❞ ❝ There’s nothing more horrifying than a miracle. ❞

Tessa Thompson as Charlotte Hale in Westworld

lost

❝  you’ll  hear  me  howling  outside  your  door.  ❞