“ I need the rest of me ”

my friend made me play postal 2 this shit ROCKS

I’m buying kemonomimi shit in my wolfboy era I’m also dying my hair black with oomf on Sunday life is beautiful

I’m sick of being angry. I miss my dad. I hate how I look for him in every male in my life, I hate how he speaks to my younger cousins. I hate that now, he tries to make up for the damage he’s done to me in superficial ways. It’s too little too late but I still feel guilty every time I reject any kind of affection. I want to have a father figure in my life, the closest I have gotten is my brothers but even then. I cannot be around this man without my body immediately going into fight or flight, I cannot listen to his voice or speak to him normally. I used to be able to, but I’ve lost even that ability, maybe because I’m back in the environment where I endured the worst of my trauma idk. I am just. So sad. I wish my dad hadn’t been like this.