My Life

It’s gona be a good week gang 🤞

I had a dream where I went up to Zach and this girl he was with. Then later he was humping me around my brother and then he was showing me his ass and I was starting to get turned on but then I felt really betrayed. I hate these nightmares but it’s getting easier to deal with

My dealer hit me up right after I hit 60 days sober and I’m so tempted to buy something off him. I said not right now but the temptation is so real. I’m doing so good tho I just kno I’ll regret it and I try to think of all the consequences behind it

Aww thank you so much

Dear diary I’m trying so hard to stay positive but I’m getting weighed down honestly. My gut health is fucked. Nothing seems to ever help and I’m physically in pain all the time. Some days are worse than others. This is so miserable. But I’ve been handling n it well and staying sober but it’s like how much more of this can I take and the smell in my bathroom? Gross dude I feel like they’re not going to address that issue and it’s just going to be like that forever. I’m fucking irritated and I have a colonoscopy soon. I hope they find something so that they can cure my constipation. It really sucks.

One thing about me I hate a rude ass bitch

I feel things so deeply. The supervisor of my apartments doesn’t like me and I don’t kno why. I have to let it go and just be the bigger person but it’s so rude. Also idk ab this 70 mg vyvanse its. Lot or im just not used to it yet

I’m so stressed out!!!!!

I’ve been doing a lot better lately. I’ve got over 6 weeks sober and I have a new therapist. I see basically every Tuesday and I’ve been opening up about my trauma and it feels like it has been easier to let go.

I just got back from vacation. I was in Montana for my brother’s wedding. I had a good time. I’m going to start trying to journal more today. I go back to work and I just took Vyvanse 60 MG. I hope it works for me today. It is for my ADHD. I need to start working out too. Maybe on Friday. I will start that while I’m going to work bye.

I’ve been struggling financially lately…I wish I was rich. That would honestly solve like 98 of my problems…

I haven’t posted on here in a long time. As usual I have a lot going on rn. I see a gi specialist tmrw and have therapy and group. I’m just getting off Xanax (again) hopefully for good….my rent is about to come out and I’m basically broke. I have just enough. Luckily it’s pay day Friday. Just gota watch it. But I have been rly wanting to work out I’m just having motivation issues. I wish I had a following like instagram with interactive followers. I’m so lonely nowadays fr…

I feel so losssssstttt without youuuuu

Why are all my friends dying??? RIP Logan/Kiera 😭 omg I’m so sad. Shit just sucks and I got so much going on rn. Feel like I don’t have much people neither. Fuck everything is so stressful. I’ll be ok tho I’m strong I’ll get thru it. Just is a lot rn

I have too much going on in my head fr I’m so sad too idk i just have a lot to deal with rn and im trying my best to stay a good person. I haven’t stolen in over a month. And i should gove myself more credit than I do and I wana start working out I gota just do it and quit saying I will I think once I get started I will get addicted.

Man I got love bombed. Fuck that shit. Idk if it was on purpose or not but it hurts. I just wana find my forever person forreal im so tired of being alone 😢 fuckkkk