My Life

I’ve been doing a lot better lately. I’ve got over 6 weeks sober and I have a new therapist. I see basically every Tuesday and I’ve been opening up about my trauma and it feels like it has been easier to let go.

I just got back from vacation. I was in Montana for my brother’s wedding. I had a good time. I’m going to start trying to journal more today. I go back to work and I just took Vyvanse 60 MG. I hope it works for me today. It is for my ADHD. I need to start working out too. Maybe on Friday. I will start that while I’m going to work bye.

I’ve been struggling financially lately…I wish I was rich. That would honestly solve like 98 of my problems…

I haven’t posted on here in a long time. As usual I have a lot going on rn. I see a gi specialist tmrw and have therapy and group. I’m just getting off Xanax (again) hopefully for good….my rent is about to come out and I’m basically broke. I have just enough. Luckily it’s pay day Friday. Just gota watch it. But I have been rly wanting to work out I’m just having motivation issues. I wish I had a following like instagram with interactive followers. I’m so lonely nowadays fr…

I feel so losssssstttt without youuuuu

Why are all my friends dying??? RIP Logan/Kiera 😭 omg I’m so sad. Shit just sucks and I got so much going on rn. Feel like I don’t have much people neither. Fuck everything is so stressful. I’ll be ok tho I’m strong I’ll get thru it. Just is a lot rn

I have too much going on in my head fr I’m so sad too idk i just have a lot to deal with rn and im trying my best to stay a good person. I haven’t stolen in over a month. And i should gove myself more credit than I do and I wana start working out I gota just do it and quit saying I will I think once I get started I will get addicted.

Man I got love bombed. Fuck that shit. Idk if it was on purpose or not but it hurts. I just wana find my forever person forreal im so tired of being alone 😢 fuckkkk

Please don’t give up on yourself you’re having so much progress no matter what you do believe in yourself and don’t let others let you down. If it wasn’t meant to be it wasn’t meant to be. There’s plenty of fish in the sea…

So here’s the tea I guess he isn’t ready for a relationship I think we are moving too fast. I sent him a message about taking it more slow but we will see what he says I don’t want to lose him yet but we can see

Please tell me I’m overthinking cuz this could be us 🥰

Ok he’s ignoring me idk what I did but I’m really sad I hate men fr I hope everything is ok and he’s just busy but like why are you ignoring me???? Fuckkkk. I fell in love with him. What if he doesn’t love me anymore or I was moving too fast?? I’m so worried man

I hope everything is ok between my boyfriend and I. I just feel like he’s been distant. Maybe I should just lay off and wait u til he texts me. I don’t want to self sabotage and push him away…I’m really falling for him and I want what we have to continue. I love you my Andres. 💛🥹🙏

Just got out of detox for benzos but bae took me i think it’s a great sign…I want this relationship to last

So I’ve been dating this guy and he’s from Ecuador. He’s really nice and sweet but I just don’t know if it’s going to work out because of distance plus maybe language barrier?? Idk I’m really worried but I want it to work out

will i feel this way forever? i don’t know but it feels like it. i’m lonely all the time for something but i don’t know what it is yet. also i feel like people don’t message me first ever

it’s been a long time since i’ve posted on here but update im lonely as fuckkkkm but i have 29 days sober. idk why i just feel as if nobody cares to check up on me anymore. shits wack. oh well i’ll get thru it 🙏