Sabotage Me Not

Suffering from delusions of grandeur Believing yourself to be a saint when you are nothing more than a traitor.

I'm having a difficult time conceptualizing the imbalance of my selflessness With the intricacies of a failed relationship, ended because of a partner's selfishness Like a hostage, I kept quiet trying to rationalize all the reasons for deceit compartmentalizing my feelings and inadequacies trying to be what you need Sacrifices I made prices I paid Love died that day as I scrambled for closure I engineered a blueprint to burn down this tragically but beautifully built bridge Because the turbulent, choppy waters aren't worth crossing over.

Sometimes, we grow together Other times, we grow apart Hope is deemed as a ray of light But irony reveals it was acquired via a shot in the dark Sometimes, we rehash old currents of electricity searching for a spark Reality says, to leave it lost There is a reason it stayed in the dark.

so long ago

Lies are like webs and liars are the spiders that weave them Manipulative little traps designed to deceive unsuspecting butterflies who perceive them But every once in a blue moon or dew covered morning The chickens come home to roost After copious amounts of praying karma comes in mantis form and the spider Is slain.

Until it’s time to return home at the first sight of light.

they have made.

of making you by beau.

He said, she said Re-think, re-tread She said, “love’s dead” He said, “street cred” “Please , leave.” “Just leave?” “Yes, please!” “Trust me!” “It hurts” “It gets worse” “Worse” “What am I worth?” “Everything.” He said, she said Man up, stand up She said, “Love hurts” He said, “Love’s work.”

They’re like addicts, Taking every line I give them Metronome for a heart, Move to my own rhythm Tossing clocks, I pass time for a living Re-write reality, I do it in one sitting Fitting, I’m the modern tragic hero Undeniably flawed, Burning passions give me heatstroke cardiomegaly, My big heart’s a weakness Forsaken to care, I’m often mistreated.

Love lockdown, guess that makes me a felon Trapped in her heart's cell, 24/7 Stuck in the hole, solitary confinement If this is love, I know lust must have designed it I knew bliss when she started throwing hints to me The new fish in this warden's only penitentiary It's a shame she couldn't put complete trust in me It causes pain to know our love was really lust to be Shortly after, I got out on parole It hurt so good, but now she'll never know.

I don't want to be recognized, I just want to reconcile Things that I do, Things that I've done Am I the one, I don't think it's true I can sense the space between me and you You reap what you sow I'm not buying what you've sold People will learn to appreciate me They look at me and hate what they see I won't hold my tongue, and that's what it will be So say what you will to your friends, in regards to me Will this last? It depends, We'll see...