lit dump po

I long for the option to shutdown, breakdown, and disconnect from the world.

Maybe in another lifetime

I don't usually look up to a lot of people within my family

Maybe I was not meant to be given a flower

Iwan natin Silang lahat

I am not ready for a relationship. For something serious. I cannot embrace the idea of vulnerability to the point where I could get hurt again. Not that much. Not again. Plus, how I coped with a heartbreak was messy. Yes, I do not ever want to be in that kind of lump again. I do not want this to be a loop. I am scared. Of the possibility of going through those. And. I feel disgusting. I feel unlovable. After all I have been through, I feel that maybe my role for this world is just to be a temporary fix to everyone I meet. I scratch for an itch. A disposable patch for holes that are yet to be filled. Silk. A suture material to be removed after a few days or weeks.

Sana mahalin mo pa rin ako sa mga oras na hindi ako buo

I have this again