My mom would beinge watch TV so now everytime I come across a show/movie it brings me straight to her memory. I would do almost anything to touch her again. Even tho I slightly believe this dog that came to me is her in a way but that's a story for a different day LOL

Stop ducking him your realize how much of a dumb nut he truly is

All this sad girl shit is beyond me especially about a boy

Then once she left I was there to pick up everything by my damn self then you want me to believe you care...

I want to run away so fast and so far

When i wake up im already annoyed tired... I'm tired of everything in my life right now. Not one thing truly makes me happy... I even find myself fake laughing at times.... I feel like The real her is buried deep deep somewhere im not sure the key is... then to have kids... then to live with someone who you feel is no help.. mentally exhausted...

What if I forget her.... what if I no longer remember the things she told me...

Literally wanna burst into tears every second of the day... I don't know wtf I'm doing nor going then I cry harder cuz in the end it's only up to me... ion even know where I'm supposed to start... sometimes it just feels I'm stuck in a deep deep dark BLACK hole

So depressed anxiety so bad I feel like I'm letting my kids down damn near every fucking day