My Unbridled Side

The sex is just one of the most enjoyable ingredients and tools at the dominant’s disposal. 

If my exes and my father had told me not to do something, you can bet that I would turn around and do it. 

And, then I met you. And everything in my life changed. I changed. I told you that you were a better person than me and I wanted your guidance. You’ve never stopped being the one that I will follow-into the dark and into every one of my days to come.

Honestly, it's not even just ddlg. It's like i lost interest in kind of all of my kinks...

I've realized that kinks were never the point. The point was building them with someone I felt deeply safe with. That feeling of trust was what made everything else exciting.

Right now, I crave that vanilla foundation first. I want emotional safety, friendship, affection, and genuine connection before I even think about exploring the wilder parts of myself again.

Unfortunately, I'm learning the hard way that people often hear "I'm into CNC," "DDLG," or "rough sex" and assume that means they can do whatever they want and you will just allow them too.

The past few years taught me that kink can be incredibly beautiful when it's built on love, trust, and mutual care. But without that safety, it will also break you.

There were times I let myself be pushed into sex when every part of me wanted to say no because I thought, "Well... I said I liked this before. This is just our dynamic. Can I even take it back?" Looking back, that wasn't consent it was me betraying my own body because I felt like I wasn't allowed to change my mind. I never want to be in that position again.