Vet inte hur länge till jag kommer klara av det här...

When your at a party and you have to pretend to be fine

Why are you lying to me?

I dont know what to do...

I just want my girlfriend back..

So apparently everyone completely approves and is encouraging me to go ahead with my plan.. Maybe its not such a bad plan after all. Somehow I expected everyone to say I had lost it but not even one person said that. They all said fight for your love, I would.

I wish I could talk to you..so freaking worried about you

I will always be here..

Its just bad news upon bad news upon bad news. When is this gonna start going well? Fuck this is depressing.

And the wait for 5 days begins a new.. I’m never going to understand other peoples hate of love, just because its not norm. Love is still love, regardless If its between a man and a woman or a woman and a woman etc. Love in all its forms and shapes are beautiful, I just wish other people could see that too, instead of fear guiding their actions and thoughts.

I keep wondering what all of this means. How much I dont know. What else can happen. And what the next step for them is...idk It all seems so extreme to me.

Am I going to get to see your beautiful face, laught at your random jokes or hear your perfect heartwarming voice again? The hope of that is the only thing that gets me out of bed in the morning…

I miss how simple things were in comparison to now. I miss being able to talk to you everyday. I miss you. I miss us. I miss everything.