rp prompt sideblog.

BITTER MEDICINE.

someone take my keys, i'm in no shape for driving.

i'll sleep anywhere.

are you ashamed of me?

or did you buy what im selling?

it won't last you long.

i bite my tongue to keep the worst of words in.

they don't hurt nobody but me.

swallow the poison i wanna spit, i think it's making me sick.

don't look up to me, i'm not as tall as you think.

you see, i talk a big game but it's bullshit.

somebody clean me up.

it's a mess that i'm making.

pain is weak, but it spreads anyway.

is it a gift you give or something precious i'm taking?

HIGHER GROUND.

from where i'm standing i can't get a line of sight.

from where i'm standing i can't get a line of sight on the future.

should i head for higher ground?

it's out of my hands.

i gave up the truth and i can't take it back.

i can feel the earth shaking underneath me.

i'm afraid of what i'll find in the rubble when it's done.

i didn't wanna hurt anyone.

PREDATOR.

what's the worst thing that could happen?

what's the worst thing you can imagine?

the world is a nasty place.

i'm afraid to get comfortable.

my head is a nasty place.

what were you thinking? shouldn't you know better?

you opened the door for an apex predator.

i keep forgetting the lessons i've learned.

your heart is a nasty place.

i'm afraid to say no to you.

keep your lies and denial.

i am fighting for survival.

my heart is a changing shape.

what if i said no to you?

you took advantage of another anxious people-pleaser.

SAY IT.

did the real me corrupt the fantasy?

did i spoil the view?

the buildup is always better than getting what you want.

did i disappoint you?

say it, if it's over.

say it, so i can move forward.

please don't leave me in the dark.

i'm haunted by your tenderness.

you gave me a nice soft place to land.

you showed me what i'd been hiding from for years.

was that just sleight of hand?

speak the words, and i will move on.

you know i'm loyal to a fault.

i will sit here waiting for the axe to fall.

if you could, would you erase me?

if we were to meet as strangers again, would you refuse to meet my eye?

would you let me pass you by?

speak the words and i will be gone.

say it, if it's done.

i will sit here waiting.

MAD DOG.

pace yourself.

you've got a long way to go before you get to lay down.

you're stuffing coins in your mouth, hoping happiness will fall out.

i've been blind to the shortcuts.

i'm stuck on the tracks, and losing my way home.

i keep looking for the end of the tunnel, it never seems to get any closer.

who's gonna keep the lights on? who's gonna make it rain?

like a mad dog after rabbit.

i keep running.

i don't feel like it gets me anywhere.

you know the kickback is automatic.

knocking me down to the bottom and keeping me there.

brace yourself.

you're gonna drag that rock around the rest of your life.

you're dancing on a edge of a knife.

you're hoping someone else will decide.

we both know the ship is gonna sink.

i keep reaching for the shore, it never seems to get any closer.

ARCTURUS BEAMING.

i thank these walls.

my hideaway to worship the pain.

i never thought i'd leave the cave.

i'm more curious than afraid.

stacking layers like sediment, each one adding weight and compression.

i am tired of forming a cliff face inside of my chest.

my ribs ache from carrying it around.

i'm grieving all that i gave up.

do you wonder who's looking back?

another life-form on some undiscovered planet, a mirror image of us here.

what exists beyond?

TIME WILL CHANGE YOU.

something hurts, something aches.

something bends until it breaks.

it's only time that tortures you.

planting hearts in a grave, pray they grow after it rains.

someday, time will change you.

you'll leave behind what doesn't move.

time will change you.

we all outgrow our roots.

ain't that the way it always goes?

some of us float and some of us sink to the bottom.

just relax and believe that this will pass.

give me a chance to get this right.

i'm learning how to let go.

BLACK HOLE FANTASY.

aren't you tired of going through the motions?

is the daily grind supposed to dull the mind?

i see a window somewhere closing.

if love is just a chemical reaction, is there a pill to take?

is there something to quell this ache?

is this the real thing or a distraction?

is this worth the risk?

the weeks blur together.

i keep trying to ignore, but it's growing.

i'm on the way to your house.

i can't wait anymore.

i'm standing on your porch.

my knuckles hesitate an inch away from the door.

what happens when it opens?

even in my fantasy, i can't commit.

i'm afraid of what i want.

i keep the car running in case i need to take off.

i watch the ceiling buckle.

it's killing me i cannot see what's making her laugh.

let's try this again.

you pull me into your arms and i can feel your heart pounding.

RED CLAY.

today i woke up from a dream.

i was clawing my up a red clay mountain.

questioned myself: why keep going?

over my shoulder were towering trees, their rustling branches summoning me.

to a parallel trail, one not so steep, offering shelter.

we don't have to do it the hard way.

i take a deep breath and turn to be brave.

harvest the fruits of being afraid.

RIVER RUSHING.

not waiting one moment more.

tonight the dam will fall.

i'm changing, kick down that door.

kick down that door.

the pressure has been crushing.

it's time to free the river rushing.

i crave the freedom of relief.

only one way out, it's through.

my wild heart is buried underneath.

i know i can't grow beneath a story told.

whenever you're ready.

ALLIES OR ENEMIES.

" the words i speak are wildfires and weeds. "

" they spread like some awful damn disease. "

" i swear, i didn't mean what i said. "

" i swear, i didn't mean it. "

" you owe me ears for dripping eaves. "

" forget it all, you caught me in a moment weak. "

" forget it all. "

" you caught me in a moment weak. "

" sometimes i just can't help myself. "

" i can't help myself at all. "

" are we allies or enemies ? "

" this will be the death of me . "

" remember when i could tell you not to smile ? "

" remember when i could tell you not to smile when you were mad ? "

" you would always crack, and we'd both be laughing in the end. "

" we'd both be laughing in the end. "

" now you're not so quick to forget. "

" all is fair in love and war, but i can't fight with you anymore. "

" what happens now ? "

" do we have another go ? "

" do we bow out and take our separate roads ? "

" i'll admit i've had my doubts. "

" i want to be let in, not out. "

UNRAVELING.

" i once loved a tailor who took eager care of me. "

" sewed together my loose ends with stitches. "

" stitches neat and clean. "

" but now my love is gone. "

" and i am left unraveling. "

" i once loved a gardener with his dirt-smudged face and hands. "

" trimmed my weeds and gave me room to grow. "

" i am left here withering. "

" i once loved a carpenter who carved a smile for me. "

" sanded my rough edges, crafted new and lovely things. "

" i can't help fracturing. "

" i never knew that i needed you. "

" i once loved a man who kissed me once before he left. "

" tied me up in knots and said he'd soon return again. "

HARD SELL.

" i'm trying to make something of myself. "

" my better days, i go buy the hard sell. "

" but i feel like i'm working with barbed wire. "

" i really can't get a hold of many things. "

" i'm one deep breath away from a breakdown. "

" my nerves are wrecked and coming unwound. "

" the world is hostile. "

" i'm fragile and i need someone to kiss the cuts. "

" tell me to keep trying. "

" is it me ? is it really just me ? "

" does everybody have it together or are we all pretending ? "

" holding it together with one loose string. "

" i can't stop pulling. "

"i rip myself apart at the seams. "

" i find one weak spot and start unraveling. "

" hoping i can find a better me. "

" a fresh new start. "

" can we stop pretending now ? "

ROCKSLIDE.

" i can hear the rumblin', honey. "

" it's why the weather's got the mountain shakin' weak. "

" i know you want to plant your feet. "

" we best get a move on. "

" or the devil we will meet. "

" i feel the quakin' honey, i feel it deep."

" oh, i pray today my soul to keep. "

" drop dead sprint, my darling. "

" don't look back now. "

" honey, just try to breath. "

" that monster's coming. "

" that monster's coming and it don't care for you or me. "

" it don't care for you or me. "

" the angels we may someday see. "

METAPHOR.

" i've gotten good at leaning on metaphors."

" i've gotten good at living on someone else's page. "

" i cut my teeth on secondhand sentiments. "

" you can't trust a single thing i say. "

" i keep my closet free of skeletons. "

" i'm much better at digging graves. "

" i always dig up bones in your sympathy. "

" i can't trust a single thing you say. "

" don't look too hard, you won't like the scars he left. "

" i've gotten good at stretching the truth out of shape. "

" all these words are sweet and meaningless. "

THE HAND THAT FEEDS.

" i've seen good men spoiled. "

" chained to their jobs like hounds. "

" they work and sleep and work again. "

" in the darkest nights they howl. "

" their cries are a warning to everyone following. "

" no man should stand to work all of his days. "

" and have nothing at the end of them. "

" i got no money but the change that jingles in my pockets. "

" reminding me of how little i have. "

" as for time, i am powerless to stop it. "

" it keeps rambling on like a mad, wandering man. "

" my papa was a howlin' man. "

" my dear papa gave me lessons and regrets. "

" all that he'd gone would be for nothing if [i] followed in his steps. "

" my papa taught me how to howl. "

" how to bear my teeth and growl. "

" he taught me that the hand that feeds, deserves to be bitten when it beats. "

" he taught he how to break my chains. "

" money ain't worth a thing. "

" no man should get more of my time than me. "

" i may never be a rich man. "

" i may never be a rich man but i can make sure that i am free. "

" i can make sure that i am free. "

" as for time, it's mine. "

LITTLE SOLDIERS.

" on the broken backs of all the words we spared. "

" like little soldiers in the trenches. "

" it was a march we made towards ruin and despair. "

" but we held hands all the while. "

" i swear that i loved you. "

" i dragged you through every room inside our home. "

" but you still held me at night. "

"i swear that you loved me. "

" we didn't give up. "

" we didn't dare surrender. "

" it was an honest loss. "

" now the aftermath will ring with songs you've sung. "

" all of our words sent home in boxes. "

" i fought with tooth and nail. "

" i fought with tooth and nail before the flag had flown. "

" but you were already gone. "

" i'll swear that i loved you. "

SLEEPING GIANTS.

" i feel the mountains shifting under me. "

" sleeping giants are finally waking. "

" my pulse is clear, rushing in my ears. "

" i hear something calling me. "

" the moon is humming lovely melodies. "

" the forest echoes, the trees are crowing. "

OF EVERLONG.

" out of the ocean, over the harbor. "

" lay no sons and lay no daughters. "

" among the mountains of everlong, 'twas there i wrote me a sad song. "

" 'twas there i wrote me a sad song. "

" and if my lover will not heed it ? "

" take my voice and take my spirit. "

" leave me weakened and dig my hole. "

" only my lover, not i, can keep my soul. "

NEVER LONG AN ANCHOR.

" on some level i think i always understood. "

" these hands of mine were clumsy, not clever. "

" i tried to do the best that i could. "

" but try as i might, i couldn't bring myself to hold you. "

" it's a secret i keep tucked inside my chest. "

" with this heart of mine that's guilty, not remorseful."

" there is love that doesn't have a place to rest. "

" it would have buried you if it had settled on your shoulders. "

" a ship could never really love an anchor. "

" so i did the only thing that i could. "

" i severe the rope and set you sailing from my harbor. "

" there are times i still wonder about you. "

" you are someone i have loved. "

" but never known. "

" you are someone i have loved but never known. "

" you'll never see the reasons i had for keeping my claws away when they were close enough to hurt you. "

" they were close enough to hurt you. "

" i am selfish, i am broken, i am cruel. "

" i am all the things that they might have said to you. "

" do you ever think of me ? "

" do you ever think fo me and my two hands ?"

" and wonder they never soothed your fevers? "

" and wonder why they never held you gently? "

" and wonder why they never had the chance to lose you ? "

NEW DISCOVERY.

" i want to stand on the edge of the water. "

" see horizons stretch on forever. "

" i want to know that there are lands not yet touched by human hands."

" not yet touched by human hands. "

" i want to be the one to find them. "

" sometimes i feel like i'm lost in a desert. "

" every dune is the same as the other. "

" i see my footprints in the sand. "

" i know where i've been and these steps i take won't go to waste. "

" i'm moving towards something. "

" i want to believe there's something left for me. "

" a new discovery waiting for me. "

" i want to kindle a love that doesn't age. "

" even when all the years carve lines into your face. "

" tell me will i be surprised? "

" tell me will i be surprised when i think i've memorized every touch and every thought ? "