TW: Discussion of abuse, homophobia, transphobia, ableism, and even mentions of grooming
I just realized I never properly my Twitter thread for the GFM into a Tumblr post. And I will now cause I think it properly explains at least my half of things going on for me.
Hi there everyone, my name is Itzel (it-cell) aka Kawaiipony Productions. You may also know me as KP if you’re a friend of mine. I’m a 19 year old queer and disabled creator of color. Specifically queer wise, I’m non-binary asexual biromantic and go by he/she/they. You may possibly recognize me as an artist and moderator for PshattuckProductions and KyzersGameZone, the voice of Twilight in Corrupted Consequences by Flutterpaws, Tangle in Mario and Sonic: Fusion Mayhem by MarioKartGamerDude, hell, even my Mlp Creepypastas Video from 2023, or even a character I voiced formally for… well, my groomer. List goes on, I've done a lot. And sadly, even people I thought I could trust but couldn’t.
I'm a content creator on YouTuber for 8 years. And as well, I'm in relationship of 2 years with my fiancé @jacquissideblog (this isn’t their main but he isn’t out on main so I’m using Jak’s side account, please respect that). We are in a closeted relationship that only people online and a few we know irl know about. As we both live in unsafe environments. And in my case... it has been nearly a decade's worth of abuse. Multiple years of manipulation, emotional and occasional physical abuse, guilt tripping, stolen/destruction of property, list goes on. This is all stuff l've further explained in the past. I have previously done a GoFundMe before actually for said destruction of property. As multiple devices that I've paid for and used for content creation or even having fun with were taken from me against my consent and some of them got extremely damaged in that process when I've checked them behind my “parents” backs.
This abuse has lasted my whole life in technicality. But in the case of my queerness, this has been going on since I was in my pre-adolescence. This has been extremely damaging to my mental state and psyche. As this and a lot of other trauma has led to multiple issues for me. And I am left struggling without being able to seek professional help or get medication for my issues. As such... it's become more and more exhausting living like this. I am growing increasingly tired, mentally drained, and stressed. Almost no one in my family are people I could fully trust one way or another. Whether cause situation wise, they can't help me. Or they are complicit of the abuse. As it's practically an open secret with my extended family for a long time.
While I am still currently job searching and going to plan to go into a field soon. Due to how dire things have gotten, me and Jak made a GoFundMe to save up for moving out and moving together sometime in the future. I'd say realistically speaking, sometime around 2027 or 2028. A lot would need to be done. Especially since there's some weird legality and family stuff that has led to me staying here in California. So Jak will be moving from Idaho to here. But we are figuring a city to live in. And the money would go to rent something. Mainly for the first few months while adjusting. Especially depending where we live as I do currently live in the Valley.
Obviously, if you folks could afford it, please donate. If not, that is completely fine. I understand that things are hard currently and most are financially struggling. But even so, sharing the GoFundMe, my post, and Jak's posts about it would be appreciated!!! As well, I will be opening voice acting commissions soon and I recently opened a Patreon for my stuff like animations, animatics, individual VA stuff, etc. But there isn't much right now so it's more for support currently. I do also have my Ko-fi so yeah, there's a few different options. And helping in any way would be appreciated!!!
Anyways, that is all from me. I'll be posting an announcement related to this late today. But for now, that's all everyone!!!
Jak’s Thread about the GoFundMe
