Underrated Thoughts

My first time in love and I hate the feeling of heartache I now experience when my partner is not talking to me and is feeling off but doesn’t clarify whether it’s about me or not. Like my chest genuinely hurts and then the feeling swirls to my belly and stirs my inner-mostedness and I just feel it intensely yet low like weak yet persistent period cramps or like a pot just before boiling. The feeling roars at me.

We all mass-murdered some ants back in the day, right? Squishing each that came under our fingers.. Beheaded a few with some rocks.. and imagined a different reality where we could be that cold and heartless to our own species. Murdering humans with no emotions. Or perhaps a reality where we ourselves were an ant and experienced such trauma of seeing our brothers and sisters slain. We wondered further still if ants even have feelings.. but we thought “why, they must. If not then why do they hesitate to see another squashed before carrying on their way?

You know when you can just feel a mental breakdown coming and you’re powerless to stop it?

Brushing the crumbs out of my sports bra at night before bed is highly satisfying