shush

as much as i love playing elliot, i really can’t wait for this show to be done filming. we’re on a break now and i can’t be more grateful. this is so unhealthy for me.

maybe i should stop being so dependent on people? in the end all it does is make me look dumb. no one ever sticks around long enough to be here for me, when all i want is someone to look after me. 

oh my fucking god this is why i literally never talk to anyone i’m such a dumb ass and can’t form proper fucking thoughts and i just end up sounding crazy to someone that i want to think the world of me

i felt good and got high and now i’m crying what the FUCK

i’m so fucking tired of being alone and yeah drugs numb the feeling for a while but holy shit i feel useless when no one’s here with me