keep it secret

i’m really just stuck in a place where i don’t know what i’m supposed to do. chris is mad at me, and i’m not saying i don’t understand because i totally do. i would act the same way he is, so i can’t even really be mad at him. but on the other hand, he’s acting like i’m the worst person he’s ever met. that’s what hurts more. he’s acting like there’s no way i could ever be a good person or treat anyone correctly. the thing is that i’ve given him no reason to think that. that’s just his opinion of me.

“I would have respectfully bowed out if she had wanted to see where you two would go. I just really don’t want you upset with me. I value you and our friendship.”

it felt like everything was going really well for once, and then it all just fell apart. i feel extremely led on, extremely used and extremely hurt. why tell someone that you have feelings for them and then turn around and tell them the next day that you have feelings for someone else? feelings don’t work like that. i really thought that lizzie was the one person who would never hurt me. i was wrong, again.