hazardous

i know i was terribly wrong

i’m not scared of death, no

i want your warmth

i feel insane

under a clear blue sky,

(leave a lot of it to life, seasons change and so do i)

can i close my eyes?

(when i think i need to try, i fuck up most of the time)

never get it right

and i asked, “are you dreaming about a crow?”

at the edge of town

praying straight to god that maybe you

would come back around

i cry every day

and the bottles make it worse

cause you were the only one

i was never scared to tell i hurt

and i found photographs of our school

on the day we met

i thought you were so beautiful

at the white shores when the night falls

was my life form worth to cry for?

win win win never was never been

i’m sinking it goes up to my chin

My complex intentions do not matter at all

in the face of the crushing flow of actual time

I saw my ancestors as sad and misunderstood in the same way

that my descendants will squint back through a fog trying to see

Some polluted version of all i meant to be in life

Their recollections pruned by the accidents of time,

all these pills that i take, try to balance my brain

seen a curious girl with that look on her face

of this drive, that would be fine

and all the trees that line this curb

would be rejoicing and alive

soon all the joy that pours from everything

makes fountains of your eyes

because you finally understand the movement