Lost In The World

My best friend tells me it’s not my fault.

But everytime?

The best thing to do:

Keep loving self.

No more second guessing

Go Knicks!

Also, I booked my first role since moving!!

Especially when one of them is all over you

Don’t get me wrong.. I love it..

But I need space!

Also that one doesn’t spend enough money..

That makes me feel like we’re not dating

The other one.. we have fun and he’s really funny

But lowkey I can’t tell if he likes me or not lol

I know he keeps planning dates..

Maybe he’s just bored

Well

Summer 2026!

My bestie comes in town tomorrow so I’m going hunting lol

I need to find the love of my life!

I’m realizing, I just wanted to be loved.

To love, actively.

Everything else was to prevent the wrong love

But it all feels wrong

And right!

I’m definitely “dating” two guys at once.

One of them, BAD for me.

My father would kill both of us.

The other guy, super nice and has a plan.

But it’s something about him that just gives me the ick.

Anyway, this will end in heartbreak as they all do.

Something I was trying to avoid.

In these pictures, the bad boy, had spent the night.

We got really … yeah .. that night.

Though, I felt close, I know we’re not.

It made me cry.

I went for a walk and had to listen to empowering music.

Went to a fancy restaurant after, by myself.

I wish I could combine both guys together.

Am I wrong?

What the next project?

Where do I channel my creative energy?

Hmmmm

Painting?

Writing?

I’m asking for what I want

Being mean when necessary

And I offer to pay half

That’s your sign as a man..

Be EXTREMELY specific

Or

I’m just free?..

I need to ground myself

My brain is moving too much

Also

She wants that shit