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Follow him or do your job.

Stay with him or run off to your objective.

Love or fortune.

A torturous decision you had to make.

"[Your Name]! Come on!"

Piers called out when he noticed you weren't right behind him anymore. His head whipped from his Captain to you a few steps back. His hands shifted on the rifle before his lips bared his teeth in an indecisive snarl.

"Piers!"

Chris bellowed with clear urgency while he checked the next room, waiting impatiently for his Lieutenant's appearance.

But you? Your gaze travelled from the broken window to the man still waiting for you.

You still remember the day he didn't. When he kept running, as if he expected you to catch up or die trying.

Seems like he's come a long way in caring for you.

"What are you waiting for?!"

He sounded mad. Irritated at your sudden lack of reaction.

You were just staring at him, as if you were contemplating things.

Piers shot one more look at Chris, who was waiting in the other room before he suddenly moved.

He crossed the distance between you two in fairly few steps before his hand reached for your shoulder.

"Hey, [Your Name]! Don't zone out, we're still in a hot zone!"

"I know."

So you did find the ability to talk after such agonisingly short moments.

Although his hazel eyes burning through your own only squeezed your heart into absolute pain.

You wanted to kiss him.

Oh, how you yearned for his lips to brush against your own.

To feel the weight of them against you. Kissing you. Tasting you.

You wondered how they felt.

If they were as soft as they looked.

How they'd burn a warmer shade from a bruising kiss. How shiny they'd look covered in your shared saliva.

And he saw every second of it.

The air stuttered in his chest on the next intake. He tried to cover it, as if anybody from his team could've seen it. He knew that look.

Piers knew how you yearned for him.

And he wasn't even talking about your obvious comments or the compliments.

The muscles in his jaw jumped as the two of you continued to stare at the other.

The world practically fell away the longer the moment held up.

Your lips pressed into a thin line when you blinked out of your trance, focusing back on the present and the situation you were all in.

It felt like the tension was suffocating him. His hand on your shoulder adjusted itself before he reassessed his grip. His adams apple bobbed when he swallowed a load of spit.

And you couldn't have been more transfixed on a simple bodily action.

"Piers, [Your Name]! What are we waiting for?! Keep moving!"

The footsteps stomping their way back into the room were unmistakable.

The voice booming through the space neither.

Chris stormed back to join you two but he paused short of the doorway at the sight he was greeted with.

You and Piers. Standing mere inches from each other. The sniper's hand falling from your shoulder to wrap back around his rifle. The way Piers shifted.

Like Redfield had interrupted something.

Your gaze found his only briefly before you focused back on the man infront of you.

Even Chris saw the love you held for his lieutenant. It wasn't hard to miss the glimmer in your eyes whenever you looked at him.

"You go ahead. I got something else to take care of."

A sentence you forced out with false bravado. The smile on your lips was shaky. A front you pushed up.

Neither of you would've ever guessed that you, the great mercenary extraordinaire (according to literally just you), would ever be this emotional while parting ways.

You weren't crying. Your eyes weren't even welling up. But you carried this heavy weight of knowing you'd have to leave them behind for your job. Leaving him behind like he was a temporary amusement.

"Don't be stupid. Both of you."

You directed at both soldiers. The smile on your lips growing despite never quite reaching your eyes.

Your hands briefly reached for Piers' arms, holding onto him almost awkwardly while you gaze fluttered around him. Like you couldn't find it in yourself to look at anymore.

And then, you disappeared.

Pulled back and already ran towards that very same window.

Piers and Chris just watched as you jumped through the broken frame, dragging shards after your descent.

But the sniper dashed towards the window like it was a reflex.

A reflex to look after you.

A subconscious action to check on you.

Your name had left his lips the very second you bolted away but nothing stopped you.

He watched as your silhoutte sprinted over the rooftops to god knows where.

The ever growing ache in his heart turning unbearable.

"Piers."

He barely registered the voice of his Captain. Barely noticed the gibberish screams of the J'avo starting to close in.

It took a solid moment before he snapped out of it. His hands shifted on the firearm, tightening in their resolve until he suddenly moved.

"I know. Let's go."

He couldn't let something as simple as your departure distract him from the mission.

Not even when his head screamed at him to follow you. To drag you back and make sure you were right behind him.

God, what did you do to him? When did this connection started to weave itself into a bond? When did he start to care for you like this?

week one , we're proving ourselves

[ day one ] my world obeys me intention , the 3d reflects my thoughts, not the other way around. test , assume you'll hear a specific word today (butterfly, ocean, apple, whatever) affirmation , my assumptions are law. i think it, i see it.　 

[ day two ] i'm lucky to the point of suspicion intention , things go right for me by default test , assume you'll avoid inconvenience. no traffic, no long lines, no wifi crashes affirmation , things always work out for me. even if they shouldn't.　 

[ day three ] people like me for no reason intention , everyone is nice to me today test , assume compliments, extra kindness, good shit only affirmation , people treat me as if i'm someone they've already decided to love.　 

[ day four ] i get what i want without asking twice intention , test instant manifestation test , choose one small, specific desire and assume it's already on the way (free coffee, exact parking spot, dm from xyz) affirmation , i don't chase, i attract, and i attract fast.　 

[ day five ] my energy bends intention , assume your presence has impact test , walk into a room and assume everyone notices you affirmation , when i walk in, energy shifts in my favour.　 

[ day six ] i said it's mine. guess what intention , make a bold declaration test , post it anywhere (on your tumblr or tiktok or whatever. even a close friends with zero people in it). ex: "i'm getting x." hold the assumption NO MATTER what affirmation , the moment i claim it, it's locked in.　 

[ day seven ] reality is simply my mirror intention , detach from results, they're already written test , when something goes wrong, don't react, stay in your assumption. affirmation , my reaction writes the story, i choose the ending.　 

week two , deciding you're god

[ day eight ] the universe is obsessed with me intention , test synchronicity test , pick a sign to appear today, not a maybe, just declare it will affirmation , the universe follows my lead, always.　 

[ day nine ] money loves me intention , change money assumptions test , expect unexpected cash. refund, discount, gift. affirmation , money finds me. i don't look for it.　 

[ day ten ] time bends for me intention , control time test , decide something happens faster than it should today affirmation , time is weak and it folds when i speak.　 

[ day eleven ] i am unquestionable intention , test social confidence test , assume everyone agrees with you, even if you say something bold affirmation , when i speak, people agree.　 

[ day twelve ] i shift reality because i say so intention , choose one big desire and then declare it done. no maybes and no manifestings. this is done. test , track every tiny sign that it's already unfolding. affirmation , this is mine, everything is catching up.　 

[ day thirteen ] i don't need logic, why would i? i have authority intention , assume the impossible can happen test , pick something that feels too big and start treating it like a basic right affirmation , i make the rules, technics are optional.　 

[ day fourteen ] i am the cause intention , reflect on the whole challenge test , list every single thing that shifted. then choose what's next. affirmation , i did that. and i'll do it again.　 

a little background information about myself, i've known about shifting and manifesting for about four years now, an avid user of subliminals too, but only started actually comprehending it about a year or so ago. call it procrastination or doubt, but I never really managed to achieve anything big or consistent enough for me to say "oh, maybe that wasn't a coincidence after all". but eventually i got sick and tired of repeating the same cycle every single day, and the moment i saw the post i just grabbed my empty journal and recorded day one of the challenge. i read nothing but the intro and everyday felt like a new purpose or task to fulfill. which was honestly very fun.

starting with week one, you may not feel like it but you did change. you slowly morphed into those affirmations you jotted down, bit by bit absorbing your intention for the day and reminding yourself that it's done, that you manifested it, gradually accepting things with ease and not reacting to your 3d.

i manifested things such as desired texts, stability, having a better day than before, power outages lasting mere minutes even though it usually lasts hours here, getting a small gift, etc. admittedly, some days i didn't get exactly what i envisioned, but we're focusing on what actually happened and that's the only thing noteworthy.

sometimes, it took more than twenty-four hours for my results to appear. other times, it took less than twenty minutes, regardless of the scale of my desire. perhaps at times i was too scared to be met with nothing again, and ended up settling on manifesting things that are 'simple' or could pass off as lucky coincidences. but in all honesty, who gives a fuck? the more you believe that yes everything happened because you, because of how powerful your mindset is, what need is there to ponder if it's a placebo effect or not? it's effective and that's all that matter, because at the end of the day, you manifested it. big or small, take the credit for it, be delusional if you will, because that helps you build a solid foundation so even if you spiral the next time, your core is untouchable and you will manifest it regardless of circumstances.

now, on week two i did struggle a bit, but the biggest change i noticed was that thanks to week one it was less disappointing than how i'd usually feel. it helped me realize that yes, it in fact is possible to manifest it, i just need a little more push and faith in myself. while yes you can manifest without believing in it, your core foundation still has to be built for you to fall back on. some people can manifest easily, others struggle at first before eventually finding success. with your foundation solid, you're still on top of your game no matter how many times you spiral and breakdown. it's about bouncing back, not dwelling on whatever you think 'broke' you down.

back to the challenge, i did my best to stay focused and saturate my mind as intensively as i can for the first time in my spiritual journey, and did see some things change. but i also said i'll be realistic, and the truth is that some days in week two saw no results, but that doesn't matter because even if i didn't see anything, something within me has changed. and the reason why you're able to continue even after not getting what you want in week two is thanks to week one. although i 'completed' the challenge there are still some days that i feel as though deserve another chance and will focus on the intentions and affirmations of that day to get my desired results. and that's just something personal to me, i want to completely fill in the blanks in my journal before i re-do this challenge or focus on my bigger desires that seemed impossible at first, even though I knew it was possible. what you do next is all up to you, but regardless it doesn't affect the truth that is; literally anything and everything is possible.

i hope this made sense and could motivate some of you who are like me, who had faith in the loa but not in themselves, who only thought of themselves as average and underachieving. once again, it is a personal journey so don't look at others as your gateway to success, there is no other person than you behind that power.

i know a lot of things i said have been rinsed and repeated countless of times, and this could have been worded or structured in a better way but i am writing this as I finished recording day 14, and honestly there really isn't any thing groundbreaking to say, to look for, to research. this challenge took me more than 14 days (i blame the perfectionist side of me that waited a bit between each day for my results to appear) but it was a really fun and motivating journey. big thanks to hrrtshape for helping everyone with a comprehensive challenge that helped me with all the aspects i felt i lacked in. sorry for the long read once again but hope this helps!