Frogs I Guess

this is fucking FRYING ME. CAN i see your dick and balls in these trying times PLEASE 🙏

And then there’s Shane, fucking himself on his dildo stuck to the shower wall and desperately lost in it, muttering ‘harder’ and ‘fuck, Rozanov’ way before Ilya’s ever fucked him.

It only gets worse when he and Jessica finally go all the way. He's pretty sure some of the noises she's making are closer to pain than pleasure and it really makes it difficult to stay hard when he's so worried he's hurting her. She tells him she's fine but eventually he just pulls out and goes down on her instead and that's much easier. He's not sure if she's disappointed or not but, a few days later, when she tells him she wants to try again she gets angry when he tells her he'd rather not, and a few days after that she breaks up with him.

It's fine, he tells himself. He liked hanging out with her and all but even just getting a blowjob from her was a stressful experience. Probably because he wasn't sure if she enjoyed it at all. She would sometimes complain about her jaw hurting when it took Shane a little while. And it usually took him a little while. Probably because he was worried about her being in pain, which was a self-fulfilling prophecy. At least he'd lost his virginity. Maybe that would stop the comments about "all that dick going to waste."

It does count as losing your virginity even if you don't finish, right? Not that he's ever going to ask anyone.

He hooks up with a few girls after that. Mostly blowjobs but whatever. It still counts. It's not quite as hard to get out of his head when there's a mouth around him as it is when he actually fucks someone. He never quite gets over the feeling that he may be hurting them and more often than not he can feel himself going soft before he can finish.