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today i told my boss im planning to move to new york this year and i didnt even cry and ALSO she was supportive of the decision wowie

im gonna see the national and courtney barnett together in ann arbor this summer and i got tickets in the 2nd row i’ll be so close they can see the tears streaming down my face

thinking about Johns mom showing me his baby pictures last week and I want to cry

tumblr is inevitably gonna die and i will have to find a different digital diary so if anyone other than hailey or diana pays attention to this i am on IG @ h.grzych

its such a silly thing but i get so envious of other people’s (especially other women) relationships with their grandmothers. mine were distant, geographically or emotionally and more often than not both. one refused to spend time with us as kids and resented us for not feeling close to her as adults. i remember the Christmas she knit everyone mittens except me, she just gave me yarn and said i could do it myself if i wanted them. the other moved across the country and lost her mind to multiple kinds of addiction. i feel guilty for thinking about a woman i never knew, hearing so many raucous stories about her, looking at photos of her, and seeing the grandmother i never had. a woman of humor and creativity and style and love and support. i wonder what wacky words of wisdom she would have shared with me, what that kind of a relationship would have been like, if that’s what most grandmas are like. i dunno. this isn’t anything.

work is slow right now, im working from home for a few months, i have no friends here. i have not been this bored since college. all i do is sleep anymore cuz i have nothing better to do. i feel so boring i don’t even wanna talk to anyone because im so bored and boring

I’m gonna be working from home for the next couple months (office renovation stuff) but also my work load for the next couple months is pretty light and it’s really hard to not just look at this as a very long vacation