- Mind Doodles -
Patience, Care, Mindfulness - for a long time these were nothing but words for me. Not substantial, not measurable, not important. Until life has challenged me to integrate them into my perspectives and made them an essential part of my inner intuition. In war with myself I experienced the deep interconnectedness between body and mind. Two inseparable units - dedicated to be in peace - rebelling and fighting against each other, overwhelmed with anger, confusion and fear. Over years I have been stuck in thoughts of having unlimited power over my body and mind. Of being able to control one with the other. Not realizing that all strength and energy I needed was created by both parts, being in balance. It was only a matter of time until life would let this construct of instability start crumbling. Slowly my idea of a body-soul individuality would start melting, taking shape of an infinite circle of elements, constantly being in interaction with each other. Over years my body has spoken a language that I didn’t understand, mostly dominated by a stubborn mind only intending to adapt fast and function efficiently. In a world that’s based on competition and power that’s surely tempting to do. On my way to acceptance I have been on my knees, walking in the dark through judgement, sadness and fear. I’m on the path creating a healthy relationship with and between my body and soul. And it’s still a long way to go. Yet, I learned to see, to realize and reflect. The solution doesn’t lie in suppressing negative feelings and fighting against them - neither physically nor mentally. The key is to treat them with kindness and start letting them be a part of you. Accept and Respect. Create a thought of things being a process, developing in time and let them be. Reality is impermanent. Present is now. Be there, not further, not behind. Don’t try to catch and hold onto something that’s not meant to be. There’s no point in explaining or categorizing. Breathe in - perceive, absorb, feel. Breath out - and let go. See what has changed - inside and outside.
