By waitingforalice

ells-diary ✨

october 🍁🍂

Addiction will swallow up everything you are and spit out everything you once were. Addiction isn't roses and morning kisses, it's leaving scars on your body and selling everything that you have- including your soul. The innocence will be ripped away from you little by little. Love? Respect? Forget about that. It's more like, lying, stealing, plotting and promising your life away. Sleepless nights, sleeping to much and not eating for days at a time will become the normal. I'm not even close to the best part. Jails, rehabs, motels, dope houses and the streets will become your new home. So get comfortable while you can. Be prepared to always be looking over your shoulder no matter where you go. Love your loved ones while you still can because they don't always stay around. Don't be surprised when people start dying more often then you think. When something really awful happens to you it will scare you for the rest of your life- remember that you were all alone to experience it. Let me tell you about the best part - when the drugs run out and your left with nothing. You'll find yourself aching for another shot to feel normal again. When you call the devil to take the pain away and he does. That's when you're really fucked.