RICE FLOWER

Someday someone won’t be afraid of how much you love. They won’t stay on the shore; they’ll meet you in the depths.

I’m the type of person that needs reassurance often. I need to hear that you still want me, I need to hear that you still care and want to be around me and that I don’t annoy you all the time. I need to know that you still want to hear about my day and listen to me bitch about the stupid stuff and get stupidly excited over the little things that brightened my day. I need to know that you still want to learn everything about me because you never get bored with learning more about me. I need to hear that I’m not a fuck up all the time and that you are happy I’m in your life. I don’t need to be reassured constantly, but I do need it more often than most and I’m sorry for that, but it’s just who I am. If you can’t handle that, then please I’m begging you, don’t get involved with me. because when I fall, I fall hard and deep. I fall in love with the way you talk and the way you smile and the way your mouth moves and if you can’t handle me and everything I am, then please don’t let me get attached because I will do everything in my power to make you happy, that’s just who I am, but it will kill me when you leave because you can’t handle me. so please remember, I might need reassurance more than others, but I will love you with a passion you have never known, so if you are going to let me fall, please be there to catch me.

One day she’s going to stop. Realization will hit her that you were nothing but a waste of time. Flashbacks of sleepless nights and endless waiting will seep through her mind. Tears. Longing. Patience. Effort… Her effort wasn’t good enough. That’s what hurt the most. The fact that she, wasn’t good enough. You should’ve appreciated her. She deserved the best and gave you nothing but the best. But, what did you give her? All you had to offer were days without talking and late replies. Never did you show her off. Never did you say those three words she was dying to hear. Never did you treat her right. You kept her waiting and wasted her time. And when the day finally comes, the day she gives you up, that’s when you’ll realize just how badly you fucked up.