Tyllie

Hi, I’m Tyllie, I’m from the Czech republic and I listen to Slipknot, Korn, the Murderdolls, Linkin Park, ADEMA, Marilyn Manson, Type O Negative (I’m starting to, okay?), Nirvana, Rammstein and Palaye Royale. I love music (it absolutely isn’t obvious you dumb b*tch😭), piercings, dyeing my hair (sorry if I wrote it incorrectly), collecting vinyls, so far I have Nirvana’s Nevermind, Korn’s Follow the Leader, Palaye Royale’s Death or Glory and NIN’s Pretty Hate Machine, I love cats, especially the wobbly ones or the tuxedo colored ones. I love the Decayed Brigade. They’re my biggest inspo for sliding. Especially Trudat, Fryboy, Archer and Jet.🫶

I have anger issues, mixed anxiety depression syndrome so expect some venting. Beginner scare actress/slider, I hate spiders, bugs, biology, physics, chemistry. I forgot to mention that I’m aro- 😭😭

I love Lokius and Stucky. My Marvel era is back.

Daughter of @pig-covered-in-grayblood

Thank yewwww for readinnggggg

We just went to a ballet performance with my school, right? There were some romantic moments in there, and they disgusted me. The idea of romance disgusts me, but… I’m into someone…?

Is that possible? I’m fucking confused. That man has me blushing and giggling, but when I see romance, I gag.

Dude, my handwriting is… pretty but hard to read. I love it. I feel expensive when writing.

This cover? This version of The Beetles’ song? Yeah, that’s how I fucking feel. Bro. That man has me in a damn chokehold. Half Czech, Half American, 6ft (around 180cm), funny, there’s a 7 or 8 year age gap (FUCK) and he’s my damn teacher.

Trust me, I’m pissed off, I’m pissed that I want him but idc.

I’ve got a couple of updates.

I stopped taking my antidepressants. They made my shit bigger than a 200kg adult man and I was constantly clogging the fucking toilet (they fucked my guts up)

I realized my mother was mentally abusive (it seems, because telling your child you wish you would’ve aborted them was absolutely something a mother should say, that’s not even the tip of what she’s said btw)

I’m still madly in love with my teacher and made a playlist of songs that remind me of him or how I feel. (That bitch has eight hours already. I’m worried)

My laptop is fucked, I can’t do shit on that thing and I spent 26€ on Resident Evil 2 and 4 remakes. Can’t even play it.

There’s something wrong with me because my period cramps are worse than ever. Is it a hormonal imbalance?

- And I found out (thanks to my psychiatrist) I have “disharmonious personality development”. Kinda makes sense because of all shit I went through.

I’m on my period, my periods are usually painful, but this one? I feel like performing surgery on myself, pain meds aren’t doing shit, I can barely lay down without cramping the fuck up and when I stand, my iron deficient ass almost collapses.

What have I ever done to deserve the curse of not only a painful period but also the heaviest flow in my family?

You know what? No point in hiding it anymore. I’m an aromantic who fell in love. With my fucking teacher. It’s not my fault he’s a very nice man. I need him. I need him so bad.

What does one do in this situation? I can’t make a move. He has a girlfriend. We need to still be a little formal to him, even though he doesn’t really care.

Just a little cherry on top, he looks like these following songs:

(Trust me, there’s more, but these came to my mind at the moment)

I saw that man.

That teacher. Fuck. He’s so gorgeous. A man doesn’t need to have abs, or muscles to be hot. He is kinda tall (like 180 to 185cm tall.

He has a little bit of muscles (just some bits).

First of all, I’m in Volt (left winged, liberal political party that cares about Europe, feminism, human rights, animal rights, the environment, and just is progressive in general.)

I’m an editor, but I’m overwhelmed with school, personal life and it’s just way too fucking much.

I had to miss 2 meetings because I needed to finish a presentation, that is not done because I got too overwhelmed. It’s due today.

We filmed 2 videos for Volt on friday and fucked up both of them. My phone slipped so it’s lopsided, the second has a bit of my finger there for a split second.

Second of all, I’m still going crazy over that fucking teacher.

Third, body dysmorphia. I usually feel good about how I look but goddamnit, I feel fat, unlovable, unworthy, disgusting, ugly. Just genuinely everything bad.

I think I have a crush. On my goddamn teacher.

He’s 26, I’m almost 19. He’s an English History teacher (teaches world history but in English). He’s super sweet, funny, lets us joke, treats us like we’re equal as him (so no authority bs).

He’s so goddamn hot he had the homophobe in our class flirt with him yesterday. He looks so identical to RE4 remake Leon it’s not even fucking possible.

Well, why am I confused and freaked out? I’m aromantic. I shouldn’t be like “oh my god- oh shit- oh fuck, oh goddamn he’s in here and he’s hot.” He has a girlfriend. I know, it’s so fucking wrong. It’s so fucking wrong to be like this.

What the fuck do I do? I know that the idea of dating, the idea of romance disgusts me, but this man is absolutely gorgeous.

Again, dirty fucking rant so no minors (I will haunt you)

If you don’t want a very ✨detailed✨(horny) rant? Well, scroll.

So, FUCK OFF, MINORS!!! Not a safe space.

I forgot I actually was working on this bs

It’s just traced (ik it’s not really art but I’m learning)

My

Fucking

THERAPIST.