@twowheel

You would have been 48 today. I wish I could hear your take on the shit show that is current events. Music has been hitting hard this week.....life has been hitting hard this week.

For those of you out there struggling with your own demons. Please don’t let the fight get the best of you. If you feel that suicide is your only option, please just stop and reach out for help. I know it is probably the hardest thing to do. But please! You matter! Believe me, you matter!

Call 988 or (800) 273-8255 or text SAVE to 741741 visit www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org or www.save.org

#suicideprevention

#mentalhealth

#mentalhealthawareness

#suicide

#suicideawarness

#mentalillness

#selfcare

#love

#suicideawareness

#endthestigma

#selflove

#mentalhealthadvocate

#recovery

#hope

#youarenotalone

#loveyourself

I miss you, you wonderful human!

Nine years! I'm going to stop saying it because it hasn’t gotten easier. Each and every year it doesn't change. I miss you just as much today as I did nine years ago today. Last year I said that one of these days I will run out of photos of you. And just like then it will be ok. I will keep using my favorites over and over again for as long as I have to. This year I struggled, hard. I missed you more times than not. I spent many a day talking to you, trying to understand how someone that has been gone so long still lives in my heart, in my head, everything. I spent so many hours listening to music that I wanted to share with you. TikToks and Insta reels that I wanted to share with you. I wanted to see you laugh at them. I wanted to see your smile. I wanted you to be shocked at the same ones I was. To hear in your own words why you too thought this world was becoming so fucked up. I am eaten alive constantly by all the things I didn't say to you when I knew in my head and my heart that I should have said. All the times that I didn't share things with you when I knew you would have found them funny, or stupid, or crazy. That little twinkle in your eye you would get before you giggled at someone you were watching. If I could only go back in time. How many times have I said that, dreamed that, wished that, this year.

“Life is full of grief, to exactly the degree we allow ourselves to love other people.” I'm still grieving and I don't know that I will ever stop.

We too often take for granted that someone close to us is fighting their own silent battles. Dealing with demons that none of us may ever realize. We often never know until it is too late, the pain that someone is going through.

Someone who was such a bright star to everyone around her, to everyone she met. Someone that was such an inspiration to everyone she talked to. A kick ass superstar of the New York EDM scene. An awesome person that will be missed by more than I know she realized.

Not a day goes by without a thought of you.

We miss you Andrea. I miss you. You were more than just a great friend. You ARE truly loved.

For those of you out there struggling with your own demons. Please don’t let the fight get the best of you. If you feel that suicide is your only option, please just stop and reach out for help. I know it is probably the hardest thing to do. But please! You matter! Believe me, you matter!

Call 988 or (800) 273-8255 or text SAVE to 741741 visit www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org or www.save.org

#suicideprevention

#mentalhealth

#mentalhealthawareness

#suicide

#suicideawarness

#mentalillness

#selfcare

#love

#suicideawareness

#endthestigma

#selflove

#mentalhealthadvocate

#recovery

#hope

#youarenotalone

#loveyourself

Eight years! Again, it hasn’t gotten easier. I say this every year and every year it remains the same. One of these days I will run out of photos of you. That’s ok though, I’ll just keep using my favorites. I just wish I could print the images in my head, my memories of you, and share them. This year I struggled. I spent many a day talking to you, trying to find what I needed to make sense of everything. I could have so used a hug on too many occasions this year. At the same time there seemed like so many things that I saw or heard that made me wish I could just send to you. I wanted to hear your laugh or a WTF when you saw or heard them. I know I go through it every year and some years are harder than others but this year, specifically last month was the hardest. I miss you. I miss you more than you would ever know.

We too often take for granted that someone close to us is fighting their own silent battles. Dealing with demons that none of us may ever realize. We often never know until it is too late, the pain that someone is going through.

Someone who was such a bright star to everyone around her, to everyone she met. Someone that was such an inspiration to everyone she talked to. A kick ass superstar of the New York EDM scene. An awesome person that will be missed by more than I know she realized.

Not a day goes by without a thought of you.

We miss you Andrea. I miss you. You were more than just a great friend. You are truly loved.

For those of you out there struggling with your own demons. Please don’t let the fight get the best of you. If you feel that suicide is your only option, please just stop and reach out for help. I know it is probably the hardest thing to do. But please! You matter! Believe me, you matter!

Call 988 or (800) 273-8255 or text SAVE to 741741 visit www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org or www.save.org

#suicideprevention

#mentalhealth

#mentalhealthawareness

#suicide

#suicideawarness

#mentalillness

#selfcare

#love

#suicideawareness

#endthestigma

#selflove

#mentalhealthadvocate

#recovery

#hope

#youarenotalone

#loveyourself

Seven years! Before you ask, no it hasn’t gotten easier. I say this every year and every year it remains the same. I feel like this year was harder than last despite having more distractions coming back from the pandemic. Like last year there were so many things that I wanted to share with you. Things I wanted you to see. I wanted to see your response, your smile, the light in your eyes. I wanted you to tell everyone how you were making the best of yet another crappy year. I wanted to look to you for something new and exciting to make it all worth it. You always had a way of doing that. Seven is my lucky number, has always been and I had hoped that this year would be the one where I can say it hurts less. It doesn’t. I’m a day late this year with this post and just the thought of that destroyed me. But I just couldn’t find the words yesterday. 

We too often take for granted that someone close to us is fighting their own silent battles. Dealing with demons that none of us may ever realize. We often never know until it is too late, the pain that someone is going through.

Someone who was such a bright star to everyone around her, to everyone she met. Someone that was such an inspiration to everyone she talked to. A kick ass superstar of the New York EDM scene. An awesome person that will be missed by more than I know she realized.

Not a day goes by without a thought of you.

We miss you Andrea. I miss you. You were more than just a great friend. You were truly loved.

For those of you out there struggling with your own demons. Please don’t let the fight get the best of you. If you feel that suicide is your only option, please just stop and reach out for help. I know it is probably the hardest thing to do. But please! You matter! Believe me, you matter!

Call 988 or (800) 273-8255 or text SAVE to 741741 visit www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org or www.save.org

#suicideprevention

#mentalhealth

#mentalhealthawareness

#suicide

#suicideawarness

#mentalillness

#selfcare

#love

#suicideawareness

#endthestigma

#selflove

#mentalhealthadvocate

#recovery

#hope

#youarenotalone

#loveyourself

Today marks six years and it hasn’t gotten any easier. I know I say this every year and every year it remains the same. This year is no different from the past. Perhaps this year was worse. There was/is the pandemic and there were way too many instances that I wanted to share with you. Things I wanted you to see. Too many times I wanted to see your response, your smile, the light in your eyes. It has been a very hard year.

We too often take for granted that someone close to us is fighting their own silent battles. Dealing with demons that none of us may ever realize. We often never know until it is too late, the pain that someone is going through.

Someone who was such a bright star to everyone around her, to everyone she met. Someone that was such an inspiration to everyone she talked to. A kick ass superstar of the New York EDM scene. An awesome person that will be missed by more than I know she realized.

Not a day goes by without a thought of you.

We miss you Andrea. I miss you. You were more than just a great friend. You were truly loved.

For those of you out there struggling with your own demons. Please don’t let the fight get the best of you. If you feel that suicide is your only option, please just stop and reach out for help. I know it is probably the hardest thing to do. But please! You matter! Believe me, you matter!

I miss you, you wonderful human!

It has been five years today and it hasn’t gotten any easier. I say this every year and every year it remains the same. This year is no different from the past.

We too often take for granted that someone close to us is fighting their own silent battles. Dealing with demons that none of us may ever be privy to. We often never realize until it is too late, the pain that someone is going through.

Someone who was such a bright star to everyone around her, to everyone she met. Someone that was such an inspiration to everyone she talked to. A kick ass superstar of the New York EDM scene. An awesome person that will be missed by more than I know she realized.

Not a day goes by without a thought of you.

We miss you Andrea. I miss you. You were more than just a great friend. You were truly loved.

For those of you out there struggling with your own demons. Please don’t let the fight get the best of you. If you feel that suicide is your only option, please just stop and reach out for help. I know it is probably the hardest thing to do. But please!