you are speaking to me as if i am a horse you own

on top of everything in my life i cried onto my phone screen and it dripped into a crack in the glass and started killing the display so now its in the phone hospital and i'm worried bc the repair girl was like there could also be a hardware issue beyond just the screen that we'd have to replace . a boy can't even cry anymore

and literally the thing that makes me saddest about this is that i can't bury my head into project sekai to distract myself KMS

god mizu5 is crazy because it's like. from the beginning mizuki is set up to be a trans character and they just teased it for ages and ages. and it's not like they didnt have the opportunities to have her be canonically trans from the beginning but like it was juuuust on the edge of deniable enough that anyone who said mizuki was trans was like immediately shot down with "well IN THE TEXT they use boku and they pronouns sooo we don't KNOW if they're actually transfem" and like for YEARSSS it was this rhetoric because they kept building up this story of Mizuki Has A Secret...... :) and would not actually put it into the text EVEN THOUGH IT WAS OBVIOUS!!!!! THAT THAT WAS WHAT IT WAS HINTING!!!!!! and it felt CRAZY you felt CRAZY because they literally made middle school mizuki wear boys uniform and people would STILL SAY THAT SHIT. so it's like genuinely validating and also soul crushing at the same time to have all of the years of insane teasing be paid off and also it's a moment that takes away mizuki's agency as a character and puts all of her fears (someone reveals her secret / her friends find out / she becomes abandoned and alone again) into one single fucking chapter. like the transgenders win..... but at what cost...........