Twinky Winky

Dear readers,

This month is the time we celebrate different types of love! and so are the asexual folks. I've discovered that I'm ace since I was in middle school. I never understand the appeal of hookup culture or sex in general. I'm actually repulsed by the thought of it. Sometimes my brain will dismiss my sexuality by saying, 'Oh, Twinky, you're just being a prude,' or when I would become uncomfortable with sexual jokes, it would say, 'It's just a joke! Don't take it seriously'

AND it can also be isolating to be surrounded by allosexuals. I sometimes feel like the odd one who doesn't enjoy sex and the jokes surrounding it.

But as I grow more asexual friends, I feel much more confident in myself. The fact that I'm not alone in this makes me feel somewhat loved.

I'm lucky to have a boyfriend who accepts my asexuality and doesn't pressure me at all. If you ever feel invalidated for your asexuality, it helps a lot to have a supporting community or friends to help you out. I'm forever grateful for this site called AceSpace where I met all of my ace friends. The community feels so welcoming and cozy. I could just write about what happened on the forum, and there'll be nice people.

I love all of my friends, and God bless you all, my dear readers.

Sincerely,

Dear readers,

I’m jealous of this one girl who I think is the prettiest in class. Not only is she pretty, but she’s also smart, kind, and diligent. Her long hair flows perfectly, and she speaks with confidence. Unlike me, who’s stupid and too anxious to speak loudly. I live in constant fear of embarrassing myself and being a failure. She has what I don’t have, and that is what makes me jealous of her.

But I learned that jealousy is ugly, and comparing myself to her instead of my past self will only hinder my self-improvement. So, from now on, I’ll try to change my jealousy to inspiration! She’s now inspired me to try and be my best self. To be kind, confident, and diligent. Wallowing in negativity for too long will only make me more miserable.

It’s important that we don’t let our jealousy control our mind or, worse, ruin someone’s life. The key is to acknowledge the jealousy, then change it into something positive.

Who knows, maybe in the future we are friends, and I end up learning that she views me as someone admirable. We all have our own strength and weaknesses that shouldn’t be compared to someone else. Be kind to yourself and God bless.

Sincerely,

Twinky Winky