Ughhh, I just broke a nearly 45 hour fast and ate so much. I wish I had just eaten a bit, but I couldn't resist. I ate a pistachio butter cup, three pickle spears dipped in hummus, one egg and some tortilla chips with salsa, and a few bites of mac n cheese So idk... rounding things up, I probably had around 1000 calories in a 30 min span? If I stop now, I should be okay.

Gosh, I'm so hungry today. I'm trying to fast today, though, so I'll just have to push through and find ways to distract myself.

I feel like the laziest person ever

I wish I didn't feel like my stepson dislikes me. He's 10, I met him when he was 6, and I became his stepmother when he was 8. I've never gotten as close with him as my husband has with my boys because his mom is still in his life, whereas my boys' dads aren't in theirs. So I didn't want him to feel like I was trying to be his other mom or something, but I'm always trying to do things for him to show that I care. As he's gotten older, I've felt more and more like he dislikes me.

I get so tired of listening to my husband complaining