Dating #4
It's hard to believe that I still dream of them, the early women of my life. They were so kind and beautiful and the relationships that I had felt so large in my life. However, that time has long past and the dreams in my head created stories that didn't really happen. They keep an idea or an emotion but that's not any of them. They are their own people and there is good reason for the parting.
Now, I feel that I could be moving forward and boldly facing the harsh criticism of the world. I look for fate and encounters better than the opportunities I create out of desperation. But oftentimes these times arrive when I feel unprepared and a cowardice rationalizes itself with manners.
Should I risk it even when it seems improper today to just seek out relationships? Is it okay for me to be vulnerable and face the modern world that has hated men and planted seeds of fear in both sexes?
I've only known genuineness and comfort in private and I've always seen public confessions as a thing to fear, but I am not young and the time to innocently make mistakes has passed me by. But I do want a partner that I can cherish and take solace in. I want to introduce someone to my mother and father.
Modern or traditional, liberal or conservative, I won't let these times get to me. I know God has built me up to be a good person worthy of love. When the time comes, I will shower her with so much love that she wonders how I haven't had a partner and why we haven't met earlier. God will send me just as God will send her. He is all the validation I need. We can grow stronger in Him.











