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Modern or traditional, liberal or conservative, I won't let these times get to me. I know God has built me up to be a good person worthy of love. When the time comes, I will shower her with so much love that she wonders how I haven't had a partner and why we haven't met earlier. God will send me just as God will send her. He is all the validation I need. We can grow stronger in Him.

I feel a mix of emotions. There is a calm relief that I am surely past the uncertainty. There is also a bit of yearning and discontent since the degree falls short of a license for practice. Then, there is anticipation. It tells me that I will reach another milestone which strengthens my resolve to move forward.

I need to go back to the grind, set my priorities straight and realize the potential I know I've had since my younger years. For a better me. For a more peaceful life.

I must've forgotten about this after I started wanting so much from so many things, but I do want to make a declaration. I want to dedicate my study of law and my profession to God. He has always been and always will be my rock. Nothing can sway me if He is with me.

I read or hear this phrase a lot for those wholesome moments where people show real manners and compassion. It's part of my dream to one day be talked about in this way. "He was raised right." Humanity can be really good too after all.

The things I do on my leisure time should also be working for my better. Sometimes it's culture, sometimes it personality, and sometimes it's just rest... However, it would be nice to become more productive and driven.

The coffee tastes good today. There are some days when I feel like I can't drink black coffee, but there are also days when it tastes perfect.

My father told me before about following a general or master plan. It came from a book he read which you may also be aware of. It makes a lot of sense. My general plan would be to set a good example of a dedicated Christian. Parts of the steps I set there include accomplishing great things for His glory and using any responsibility laid upon me to further His word and His will.

Sometimes a slow and simple day is a good day. Nothing fancy, but one that is filled with some peace of mind and a lot of leg room.

I now recall something that had helped me before to become better amidst challenges and trying circumstances, "preparation." I can always write down what to say and research things I do not know. An expert is not made in a day but countless hours spent, some say 30,000 hours to be exact. Now I have a goal.

Once again, I am in this position where I wonder if I am ready and if it is something that I really want. Nobody wants to get into a relationship with a half-hearted man... But again I think, I have spent so many years searching for that someone. I see people around me getting into relationships and I see myself as also deserving a partner... some happiness with someone... but, can I handle it? I have studies, I have no work... Even if I reaaaally wanted it, do I have the social skills to follow through. I want to ask God for His direction and timing. I want to hear his answer.

In the traditional community, which the church mostly follows now, the man not only provides but also leads as the head. This does not only speak of the physical matters but also, and more importantly, spiritual matters. Follow God's word. It will guide you.

I learned something from my church colleague. He said that we are allowed to express our intentions or interest in dating to someone. Moreover, in our community, the women have it more difficult as it is a conservative community. Men are expected to make the first move. However, after expressing our intentions, we must do several things: (1) lead and ask for dates; (2) be clear with what we want especially after 3 dates or even earlier than that (we owe them the responsibility of letting them know if we want to stop or keep going); and of course (3) show commitment and exclusivity.

i think I need support. I'm alone in the city today and I keep getting distracted of things that I need to do. I really like self-improvement books cause they get me going and trying. I'm trying hard.

I want to try something today. Just write something down here everyday to get things off my chest. I wonder if it will work, having an online journal of sorts.