Gwyneth

I just always feel rushed like 24/7 and it's like I need to get somewhere but I have nowhere to go?

My friend from MD came up for a few days and I was rlly thirsty to I got water from the sink and she was so surprised that I could do that like is tap water not a thing??? I'm confused

I'm just really happy, genuinely happy, I haven't felt this great in years.

I did it I told my mom everything and she's gonna help me she wasn't mad and she didn't try to diminish my feelings she was just upset that I didn't tell her sooner and I think this is really gonna help our relationship. I told how I feel depressed and that I want to change and become a better/healthier person and I told her that I really don't trust my therapist and she's gonna find me a new one. I'm just really really happy I told her it's like a giant weight lifted off my shoulders. I finally feel like I can get better this time.

I got a concussion today so I went to the same ER I was at when I overdosed and they put me in the same room and I was laying in the bed and I looked up at this creepy picture that I remembered from last time and I was ok. I thought it would bring back bad memories and put me in that state again but I was genuinely ok and I'm really proud of myself.

Seriously though why do colleges and people look down on home schooled kids? I've been homeschooled for four years and I can tell you for a fact that I'd dominate a decathlon. I'm not homeschooled because I couldn't keep up, I'm homeschooled because it was the best option for me, the same reason a thousand other homeschooled children have. We're not idiots and we're not crazy, we're normal children who have worked just as hard if not harder than mainstream schooled kids. Honestly it amazes me how surprised people get when I tell them why is it so surprising? I have a weird and inflexible schedule that just couldn't coincide with Main Stream. Seriously people it's 2017 open up those eyes and stop being so judgmental.

When I was in sixth grade I walked into my religion class (catholic school) and there was a tile missing from the ceiling and I asked one of the girls in the seventh grade what happened, and she said this other girl kicked the ceiling and when I asked how she just didn't answer and up to this day that class of eight girls are the only people to know how she kicked the ceiling. It still haunts me seven years later.

Today I got accepted into one of my top choice colleges. To some this seems like a minuscule task but it my greatest achievement so far. Three years ago I tried to end my life, which luckily failed, because I thought I wasn't good enough, I thought I was going nowhere I had terrible grades, I had already been held back once, my friends were leaving me and joining my tormentors, I thought I was going nowhere in life. I was so wrong. I opened my acceptance letter with a racing heart and tears in my eyes because I did it, I got past my fears and I am headed towards a happier and healthier life. It got better.

"Oh we thought you were busy" WITH WHAT?! IM HOMESCHOOLED I DONT PLAY SPORTS IM NOT IN ANY CLUBS WHAT COULD I POSSIBLY BE DOING

Hello when I mention a new movie to my friends that doesn't mean they can go see it WITHOUT ME

Does anyone else get kinda heartbroken when you find out the kid you went to your camps dance with 10 years ago has a girlfriend now? No? Just me? Ok great

I just got my period and usually I wouldn't give a shit but I have to do kids makeup and help with lines and costumes and mics tomorrow for FIVE HOURS for this fucking Christmas pageant I don't like spending time with kids already but I really have no clue how I'm gonna keep my patience at bay plz someone give me tips for not wanting to murder kids

Found out I'm allergic to dogs today!!!!

I used to stay clear from any human contact. I never let my friends hug me or sit too close to me I always had to have the window seat so I could stay close to the door, I never even let my mom or dad hug me. I know now that it was because I was ridiculed by my classmates about my size and weight and they had brought me down so hard I thought I was too disgusting to look at. Over the summer I went to a three week photography program where I met one of my friends Hailey. Every morning I would walk in and she say, "morning Gwen, you look beautiful today." And she'd give me a hug. I've never been called beautiful, not by a friend only my mom, so when this girl I didn't know said it every single morning it made me so happy, a happiness I hadn't felt in a long time. My confidence grew more and more throughout the three weeks to the point that I was actually the main model in a friends project, something I would have never done. If anyone makes you feel so bad about yourself that you are uncomfortable in your skin, I am so sorry and I think you're beautiful.

Ok so I can't be in silence, while at camp we would all be editing and it would get quiet and I just started laughing every time, and I've come to realize it's like that in all situations. When I'm with friends someone has to be talking or when I'm alone I have to be playing music or watching a show, I can't even fall asleep in quietness. Idk what that means but I'm kinda nervous? SOS?

None of my friends want to see fantastic beasts and im too scared to go by myself so SOS?