smug cunt

holy shit the balls in their hands guy is dead I'm so happy

the wish to keep my deadname to myself at all times vs the urge to tell the cutie I've been fucking that their dog has that same name

who knew spending time with people could be so nice if you're not terrified the whole time

my mom is currently visiting and we went to dinner and at one point a waiter came up and handed me a note "from the head bartender" which had his name and number on it. idk who it actually was but i texted him and we'll see what happens

the substance is a bad movie

you know when people have been telling you your whole life that a certain aspect of you is wrong and then someone comes along and says they value you *because* of that aspect and suddenly it's like your whole world is falling apart and thereby revealing a world far more beautiful than the one you've been living in . anyway brb crying throwig up etc

every time i watch a youtube video about some weird cool piece of media i get really excited about making weird cool art myself but then i never do because I'm too busy watching youtube videos about weird cool media

I'm leaving my comfort zone and I'm learning so much about myself and people and life in general and I just have so many questions like what the fuck have I been doing for the past 27 years

i just ran into an acquaintance who has schizophrenia and from what he said and how he acted he might have been psychotic (I've never experienced him in psychosis before), and it was such a refreshing experience. i didn't understand what he told be, but he said that's fine. he said i really helped him by letting him accompany me for a bit. he saw something beautiful in me, something only he could see, and i love that.

idk what i was expecting but squid game season 3 still managed to disappoint me lol

just found out that the spiritual opposite of "this anime girl who looks like a child is 1000 years old so it's fine to think she's hot" exists in the form of "is it okay to be attracted to this fictional character who looks and acts like an adult but is technically very young because of lore?" and that's my cue to get off the Internet for today