Trauma

my diet:

🌸eat a MAXIMUM of 700 calories a day!

🍯drink LOTS of water!

🌸drink tea if you want extra flavor

🍯don’t eat before 2pm and after 8pm (18hr fast!)

🌸some foods i cut out of my previous diet!

soda or any other drinks that aren’t water or tea

breakfast cereals (excluding oatmeal & granola)

chips & french fries

syrup for the off chance i eat any breakfast foods that require it

any bread that isn’t Grain, Wheat, or Wheat Tortillas

ANYTHING FROM MCDONALDS💀🤮

there are many more that i will include in anothe list down the line

🍯eat fruit daily, unless fasting! (2 cups at least!)

🌸fast in fridays!

🍯chest days have to be planned in advance! for example my cheat days are anytime i have a family event, because if i don’t eat or if i diet i will get hospitalized or something, or whenever i go to disneyland. family events are only about once a month, sometimes less frequent, and disneyland days are about once a week.

workouts

🌼workout in the morning!

🍵do a mini work out after every meal!

🌼try to ride a bike (stationary or real) everyday!

🍵workout before you go to bed!

morning workout:

45 squats

40 jumping jacks

35 crunches

30 lunges (15 on each side)

25 toe touches

20 squats

15 jumping jacks

10 crunches

10 lunges (5 on each side)

5 toe touches

run in place for 3 minutes

wall sit for 2 mins

one minute plank

30 second wall sit

mini workout:

20 squats

15 jumping jacks

10 lunges (you know the drill)

5 toe touches

1 minute wall sit

before bed workout:

50 crunches

30 jumping jacks

20 lunges (what’s good)

30 second plank

30 jumping jacks

10 squats

distractions:

🍃chew sugar free gum if you want to eat

🍂drink water; maybe you’re dehydrated!

🍃take a hot shower/bath

🍂look at thinspo/fatspo/sweetspo/meanspo

🍃write down why you want to be skinny on little slices of paper, put them in a jar and if you want to eat, pull one out of the jar

🍂slowly count to 100

🍃chew on ice

🍂draw a picture of you at your goal weight

🍃listen to music

🍂talk to other ED blogs on tumblr

low cal snacks (under 100 cals):

any vegetables

a small tangerine(25-30)

½ - 1 cup watermelon(25-60)

1 - 2 cups of fresh popcorn. (25-65)

12 pretzel sticks (25-30)

1 medium peach (35-40)

1 banana (90. eat half if that’s too much!)

greek yogurt with fruit. light & fit. (80)

^ i like to add ¼ cup granola with the yogurt if it’s for dinner or if family is around.(83cals)

1 small apple (50-60)

1 small orange (50-60)

1 cup strawberries (53)

a slice of great should never be higher than 90 cals

one slice of an orange (8)

grape (2 cals each)

string cheese (50)

daily:

🌟weight in every morning

💖record weight in MyFitnessPal

🌟^speaking of MyFitnessPal, log all of your food & water!

💖workout

🌟stretch every morning and night; before your workout

just some extra tips:

🌺take an ice bath at least twice a week!

🌿eat slowly!

🌺chew your food until it disintegrates

🌿drink water after every bite you take

🌺try eating with your non-dominant hand

🌿if your craving something sweet, try eating something sweet but not necessarily a desert.

½ cup of granola

a cup of popcorn

a tablespoon of peanut butter

raisins

My Shit Brain™: ya know what would fix this? doing something sexually explicit and impulsive for attention :-)

for people who are trying to figure out which occurrences were rape and which were sex. wondering if any were sex.

for people who were coerced into things. who were told they had to because that’s what partners did, or that thy had to have sex to show love. who have been told sex isn’t meant to always be enjoyable but you need to do it for your partner anyway

for people who were told they couldn’t have been raped because “you two look so happy together in pictures” or “you have been together so long. if they were raping you you would have left.”

for people who feel like they couldn’t have actually been raped since they can’t remember every instance due to the amount of times it happened

for people who are told their rapists are “too nice” or sporty or funny or friendly to have actually raped them. for people who are told they couldn’t have been raped because their rapist isn’t “scary” enough

for people who are still being bullied by their rapists and their family and friends for “spreading lies” and hurting their rapists feelings.

for people who are obsessed with what happened to them. who can’t let go to the memories because the physical ones are the only clear ones after so much gas lighting and emotional abuse

for people who feel like they need to prove it to anybody they tell or to themselves. who feel like they’re preparing to go up in front of a judge and jury when they’re just trying to tell their friends or therapists