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I can’t be with you again, I wish it worked. There is nothing I wish more. But I can’t be with you anymore and it’s ok. I tried to make you see I’ll always be here, I tried to hold on. You don’t want this anymore and you aren’t healthy for me. You told me to give up. Your not good to me anyways. I deserve better right? I don’t know why I expect you to ever be here for me thru anything because you really never have been. But that’s my problem. I keep thinking you’ll be better, I keep holding on the that little bit of faith I have in you. I know you could be better but you won’t for me. That kills me. I don’t give up easily and I wish I did. I’m in pain, and I don’t know why. Someone has made it extremely clear for years by bad actions and mean words, that he doesn’t love me or care about me. I just thought thru this at least you would be there a bit more. It’s okay that we can’t be together anymore. But the problem is that I hurt because I’ll never stop caring and loving you. And knowing you so easily stopped is hard. You won’t even talk to me about anything. I’m nothing special. Me loving you makes me pathetic in your eyes. Yes I am pathetic for loving you, you are horrible. But til the day I die I will love you. After all the painful memories I have been put thru I still somehow am capable of loving you. I want this to be over.