Trans Idol Headcanons

Well I’m trying AGAIN to do some headcanons, so hopefully I get something done. I’m starting to feel really bad about not putting any out when I have so many requests and I’m getting so many new followers (like holy crap! I’ve been dead for over a month and I have almost one-hundred more followers!)

I promise I’m trying to get stuff written but I just can’t come up with anything. Fucking-- I’m legitimately so so sorry for just up and disappearing, and I have to thank all of my followers that are still here so much for staying here all 150 of you fuck that’s almost half of my main. Even with my being dead- thank you so much.

Oh my goddess that’d totally be a really big reason. I think that, like in my trans boy Yoshiko/Yohane HCs, her Yohone persona would also be a part of her shaping her identity alongside everything else? Hmmm.

The only ever try it one time. Umi isn’t really comfortable with the idea of degrading Eli, especially knowing how weak and fragile her girlfriend’s self-esteem is. From her gender identity to how her parents and even her grandmother handled Eli’s “failures”, Umi knew that Eli’s self-esteem was fragile to the point that she worried even a single hit, no matter how light or requested, could shatter it. And she was right.

The first and only time Eli managed Umi into degrading her in the bedroom, all Umi was able to get out was calling Eli’s penis “useless” before the girl collapsed into the tremors of an anxiety attack. Despite her not feeling comfortable with having a penis, it was still a part of her and any part of her being called “useless” was apparently enough to send the girl into mini attacks.

It was after that one time that both Umi and Eli decided that degradation play was not for them. Eli wondered about degrading Umi, but the idea didn’t sound appealing to either and so she dropped it.

So since you didn’t specify a gender for Tsubasa, I’ll just go with trans girl ‘cause I feel like I’m better writing trans girls (I wonder why).

She’d fallen for Honoka months before they’d ever even met, watching in awe as the absolutely beautiful girl danced and sang with the rest of her group, the bland and generic seifuku taking away absolutely nothing from her sparkle. Tsubasa couldn’t believe how absolutely gorgeous that woman, Kousaka Honoka, was. Even as an amateur idol, she moved with the fluidity that rivaled even Erena’s when A-RISE had started getting popular.

Since then she’d been following this new group, μ’s’s, every single step and action in the school idol community. Watched as they grew ever more popular amongst fans, and how fans started turning to them instead of A-RISE for inspiration and courage. And Tsubasa, despite herself, found her doing the same. But only with her.

Only with Honoka.

A part of her was jealous, if Tsuabasa were being honest. Here was this girl, this natural, talented girl that had managed to reach Tsubasa’s own level of talent and popularity in months, whereas it took years for Tsubasa to even contemplate such a task (though she was grateful her parents let her reach a point where she could consider it, spending more money than she imagines they ever wanted to on her hormones and to get her into UTX, the highest end school that would accept her as a female student).

But another part of her, a much bigger part of her, was fascinated with the other girl (or if you asked Erena or Anju, more borderline obsessed).

So it was this moment, with her idol next to her, absolutely lost and having no idea what she should do, that Tsubasa found herself pulling Honoka into her arms. 

She didn’t have to tell Honoka, she already knew about Tsubasa’s being trans (Maki probably told her, the vindictive child), and that was an incredible weight off her shoulders. So being able to hold her idol, a girl that didn’t have to accept her because she already had, was a dream come true for Tsubasa.

Who accidentally pushes a door instead of pulling/vice versa: Chika. Almost every time. It’s just kind of a thing now, she doesn’t even look to see if it’s a push or pull door, she just always pushes.

Who doodles little hearts all over the desk with their initials inside them: Kanan, big time. Her desk has to be constantly cleaned because she can’t help but cover it in hearts with 「高海千歌♡松浦果南」. Mari had to keep anyone from asking Kanan about it.

Who starts the tickle fights: They both do, often at the same time. Their tickle fights last for hours, and sometimes it’s more intense than Kanan’s morning workouts.

Who starts the pillow fights: Neither, they’re too busy tickling to bother with pillows.

Who falls asleep last, watching the other with a small affectionate smile: It goes back and forth- often times it’s Chika watching Kanan sleep, but every now and then after a particularly long practice session, Kanan will watch Chika doze into her own rest.

Who mistakes salt for sugar: Kanan. She just doesn’t even use salt or sugar anymore, unless it’s clearly labeled.

Who lets the microwave play the loud beeping sound at 1am in the morning: They don’t have a microwave anymore ‘cause Kanan sold it after Chika kept waking her up in the middle of the night.

Who comes up with cheesy pick up lines: Both of them, absolutely.

Who rearranges the bookshelf in alphabetical order: Surprisingly Chika. She’s got pretty bad OCD about that kind of thing, so Kanan tries to remember to do it. She just forgets sometimes.

Who licks the spoon when they’re baking brownies: Chika.

Who buys candles for dinners even though there’s no special occasion: Chika. Every night is a fancy, romantic dinner for her and Kanan, regardless.

Who draws little tattoos on the other with a pen: Neither do. Chika used to, but Kanan had to beg her to stop after her arms got riddled with drawings of mikan.

Who comes home with a new souvenir magnet every time they go on vacation: Kanan, the fuckin’ dork.

Who accidentally pushes a door instead of pulling/vice versa: Nico. Nozomi laughs at her a lot because of it, but Nico continues to do it.

Who doodles little hearts all over the desk with their initials inside them: ....Nico, but she’ll vehemently deny it.

Who starts the tickle fights: Definitely Nozomi- though it’s more of a groping Nico’s breasts that starts it instead of tickles.

Who starts the pillow fights: Nico in retaliation for the groping.

Who falls asleep last, watching the other with a small affectionate smile: Nozomi, definitely.

Who mistakes salt for sugar: Neither do, they’re both pretty diligent about things like that.

Who lets the microwave play the loud beeping sound at 1am in the morning: Nozomi when she’s trying to annoy Nico.

Who comes up with cheesy pick up lines: Nico, but typical of who she is, she denies them being cheesy as fuck.

Who rearranges the bookshelf in alphabetical order: Neither. They’re both incredibly disorganised in that sense (Kotori, Eli, and Umi fucking hate it).

Who licks the spoon when they’re baking brownies: Nozomi, Nico gets really annoyed when she does but doesn’t bother stopping her.

Who buys candles for dinners even though there’s no special occasion: Both of them. They both love the romantic air.

Who draws little tattoos on the other with a pen: Nico, though they’re uh.... not good. Nozomi doesn’t say anything, ‘cause she finds it cute.

Who comes home with a new souvenir magnet every time they go on vacation: Nozomi- she and Eli have a competition going for who can collect the most. Nico blames Kotori for enabling Eli.

Who accidentally pushes a door instead of pulling/vice versa: Eli’s a fucking dork and gets distracted a lot when talking to Kotori, so she does it far too often.

Who doodles little hearts all over the desk with their initials inside them: Kotori, 100%.

Who starts the tickle fights: Kotori, she loves getting under Eli’s skin in a way no one else can, and that involves lots and lots of tickling.

Who starts the pillow fights: Eli, just.... Eli.

Who falls asleep last, watching the other with a small affectionate smile: Kotori watches Eli sleep a lot- not in a creepy way, but in that kind of “I can’t believe I’m dating someone so perfect” kind of way.

Who mistakes salt for sugar: They both do if they’re distracted by something, though Eli does it far too often when out on dates with Kotori.

Who lets the microwave play the loud beeping sound at 1am in the morning: Eli... she forgets a lot.

Who comes up with cheesy pick up lines: Eli, the dork. She doesn’t even try to deny their being cheesy.

Who rearranges the bookshelf in alphabetical order: Both of them, thankfully. Both of them are organisational freaks, so they can’t handle it when books are out of alphabetical order.

Who licks the spoon when they’re baking brownies: Kotori.

Who buys candles for dinners even though there’s no special occasion: Kotori. Like Umi, she loves the romantic vibe that candles bring. Eli and Honoka talk about how cute their girlfriends are for doing it a lot, but love it too.

Who draws little tattoos on the other with a pen: Kotori. Eli actually did get one of her designs as a tattoo.

Who comes home with a new souvenir magnet every time they go on vacation: Their fridge is covered in magnets Honoka picks up from countries she travels to. Eli, the dork.