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This story will be part truth and part fantasy

I am Barb I am a transgender, I started to figure this out when I was about 8 when I would go to my best friend Jill’s house we would play dress up. But let me back up my donor dad left my mom when I was 2 month. Mom meet and married my dad when I I was 2. My brother came along a couple of years later. I was about 6 when I realized our family was different as mom and I are white and dad and Billy ( my brother) are black. I never thought about it till I noticed people staring and even pointing.

Fast forward a bit I started to realize I myself was different in second grade I would go over to my bff’s house and we would play dress up. It felt so proper even then. Over the years I could not stop in middle school Jill would lend me pairs of her panties to wear under my boy cloths. Over summer I would go over to her house and spend all day dressed. In high school I would say I was go over night when her parents we would get me dressed up and go out to places like the movies.

All this time I would notice Billy was much more a man than me in every way I am 5’3” 120 pounds he is about 6’3 by the time he got to high school.  I never really thought to much on it I was proud of him go and cheer him on for all his sports for as long as I remember he was just my brother. But his first day in freshmen year of High School I was a senior but was being picked on by some other boys Billy walked up and told them to back off or deal with him. For the first time in my whole school life I was not picked on all year. I had done oral with boys a time or 2 by this time but a week or 2 later Billy came out of the shower without a towel completely naked and dripping wet and first time in year I had seen him like that. I was in shock at all the muscles and yes the hugh size of his penis. As time went on I started to think of Billy more and more and what it would be like to be his girlfriend.

Fast forward I moved out of the house when I finished high school got an apartment with Jill on the far side of town. We did this so I could start being me I spend about 75% of my time as me. I am only not the real me mainly around my family as I have not told them. Every once in a will I would see Billy or Mom and Dad out in town but they never noticed me even if I walked right past them.

A  few weeks ago will Jill and I were eating at a Mexican joint Bill and some of his friends came in. He was in this super tight tshirt showed all his muscle and I could not look away as he noticed Jill and came over to say hi. He asked who her friend was and Jill hesitated and said this is Barb I used my best voice told him hello as he told me was a pleasure to meet me. As he walked away and all through our diner we were in a bit of shock he did not realize who I was. As we left he stopped Jill and asked her to give me his number. When I found this out I became a wreck my thoughts were jumbled, on one hand he was my brother the other he was gorgeous and my dream man. I had compared all men to him for yrs.

A week went past and Billy had called Jill a  couple of time asking why I had not call she had told him I was very shy. After about another week and all the thoughts going through my head Jill came up with the idea that we could go on a double date to the movies  I agreed and she set it up worked out all the details  like telling her bf that knew about me not to mention anything about me  (of course she did not tell him who Billy was to me) and we thought were safe.

The night came I was so excited been awhile since I had a date with anyone and never with one as hot as Billy. I dressed to the nine just to go to the movies.

At the movies I was not supposed to let anything more than holding hands happen but as he was so sweet to me and during the movie whispering in my ear. I was getting weak feeling his breath against me. So one time when he leaned over and down to whisper something I turned my head and kissed him. We spent most of the movie making out after that. I figure it would be ok as we would just go our own ways after the movie I would go home to my apartment Billy to mom and dads. But as we were leaving Eric (Jill’s bf) suggested we go get some food. Jill and I excused ourselves to use the restroom. Really we wanted to debate what to do but in long run decided it would be ok. I even rode with Billy to restaurant. Once there we sat in a booth loved snugging against him a little. After dinner this time me an Jill did need the restroom leaving the boys alone we told them we would meet them outside.

Once outside I was going to ride home with Jill and Eric since Mom and Dad live the other direction, but when I went to give Billy a kiss good night he said we had to talk for a minute. We walked over to his car he was a little mad I knew this as I knew him so will. He told me Eric mentioned something about he was surprised Billy would like a girl like me. Billy wanted to know what that meant Erica would only say he thought I had told him since we were kissing and all because Jill had told him how much I liked Billy. So Billy wanted to know what was up I tried to play it off as was a race thing but did not buy that after about 10 minutes I told started to cry and told him I was not born a girl. I thought he would fly off the handle but did not he picked me up off my feet and hugged me telling me all he see’s is a woman . I could not help but wrap my legs around him and kiss him for that . I figured we would all go home from there after we talked for about 45 minutes and all seemed fine.