Fear cuts deeper than swords.

I understand now.

I so deeply miss feeling wanted and loved in all the ways

I don’t fucking want this anymore

I AM SO SORRY THAT I COULDNT GIVE YOU WHAT YOU NEEDED.

anyway I’m pathetic and I want you back despite everything and I wish I didn’t

how can you have feelings for someone else after everything. for so many years I’ve had you by my side and I just feel so abandoned and I don’t know what to do. it hurts so fucking bad. I’m devasted and my heart is so heavy and all I do is wonder what I could have done.

I can’t believe I feel this fucking crazy this should be fucking punishable by death it shouldn’t be possible for me to keep all of these feelings inside of my body without exploding and the dumbest part is that it’s about one fucking person

god I hate this so fucking much