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i stopped taking pills.

me and my “funny” bf broke up cuz his “funny” jokes. (fuck you kuzey)

i dont harm myself anymore!

i dont feel guilty after making intimate stuff anymore.

and im so so healed that i can be happy being alone with myself. this is something HUGE for me.

so, ive been fangirling since the school closed and ive been thinking about writing some one shot fics since no one does in my own language and everyone’s just leaves them unfinished. what do yall think? (ive been thinking about writing wolfstar. could be anything else from harry potter tho. i might actually write ANYTHING about the marauders lmao.)

i kinda trust my writing skills cuz ive been writing since like i learned to write. (FUCK MY ENGLISH WTH)

i also love writing and id LOVE to see yall’s options about what can i do.

thats all for today.. love you guyss!! IM GLADD IM SOO BACKKK!!!!

i made a new bf, hes so so fucking funny.

so much.

and i love funny men😔😔

so and thats all i somwtimws harm myself and all and me and my mum fight a lot idk why

maybe cuz im a reckless teen idk.

but i learned something, life literally goes on and you cannot do anything about it.

people die and things get worse, or better, you just gotta keep going even if you dont feel like you should.

i mean i tried k.lling myself for two times and im listening to "i hate everything about u" while sitting on the chair in kitchen in my 15min break from tidying up my room, and my sis is just eating snacks and my mum (who we always fight) keeps making me laugh.

life is so unpredictable, i learned that.

keep laughing, keep crying and keep having fun.

like, i got assaulted and i cant bare even the small kisses, its not my fault, i know that. does it ruin my life? it does. do i keep remembering what he did, i do. did i try to heal? i did and im still trying and literally thats all what matters.

im gonna keep living even im the most unexpected and literally about to went a mental hospital, idk why.

life makes me so fucking bipolar.

i take pills and im gonna keep takin them.

gonna make my cat miss me a little more, sorry sweetheart but im not coming there.