When Life gives you Lemons, life feels complete!

Day one was a boat tip, Lemon got quickly bored till I told him there were river monsters so we spent the rest of the trip "spotting" them, there were way more monsters than I expected.

Day two was pettitts adventure park and honestly he loved it, so much to do and it was just perfect for his age, we were there for the whole day, would definitely go back.

Day three we went to Cromer which was so lovely, chips on the beach and collecting tickets in the arcade. It also felt like forever since I swam in the sea and my god it's wonderful.... Especially on a sandy beach.

Today is day 4 Badger and I have a date, Lemons got his Panda (babysitters nickname) coming to play and we have booked a lunch at a fine dining place. I can't wait.

Pettitts adventure park

Beach day (probably Cromer)

Broads boat trip

Roarr Dino park

Trampoline park and Arcades

Potentially Yarmouth Circus

Apparently there maybe rain so we will just giggle stuff around as and when.

We've also got a date night in the middle of it all! Yay!

Lemon got a Bike for his birthday in June, other than sitting in it that very second and realising it wasn't as easy as his previous scoot along bike he hasn't touched it. We've tried, but he was having none of it. Today while I was making him a second breakfast he randomly got on the bike and started rolling around on it. He's been on it all day on and off and it's made me so incredibly happy.

When we were out for a walk earlier I was talking to him about the road we were walking along (not far from us) which was a road I was dead set on living on, part way through my story he turned around and said "mummy this story is sooo boring, can you stop"

1. Absolutely freaking the shit out about Lemon starting school. Not only am I not ready but it's having me questioning my whole mothering and essentially I've decided I've wasted the 4 years I've had with him and not done "enough" to enjoy our time together.

2. I've not chatted about it on here, but it's especially bothering me currently because basically the relationship with G is over. From her reactions to me moving I kinda expected it, but it doesn't make it less upsetting and honestly I've been shocked about how pretty instant it was. I've been holding on by a thread, but feeling like I may just let go at this point.

Dropped Lemon off to nursery and have decided to stay in town have a coffee and then I want to look for school shoes for him and a swimming suit for me.

Then I have the most amazing massage, also most expensive, in very thankful for Badger for gifting me the first one, but I actually cannot afford to keep seeing this woman cos she is so incredibly expensive, I can absolutely tell why, I literally worked in a massage clinic, I've had all kinds in my time and this is genuinely the best I've ever had.

Women: It honestly sounded like someone was being murdered up there, the commotion went on for ages I thought about knocking on the ceiling with my broom and putting the chain on (the door) in case they came down here... " Does a little smile cos she knows obviously it wasn't someone being murdered.

Officers:

Lemons been wanting to show Daddy how we've been letting his toys sit in Daddy's chair, Badger and Lemon have a game "kitty cat in mine home" the home is his side of the sofa, lemon is the kitty cat.... So hes finding it hilarious to put other toys there.

We've also just had a lot of fun together, Lemon requested a visit to the coffee shop, which essentially means he gets a cake but he very rarely has a request for what he wants to do, so I went for it and then he asked to go to the book shop after. We then walked home not stepping on the cracks and he was telling people there were sharks on the pavement... I was surprised by the amount of people who played along.

When we were home we watched a movie together and there was a line in it "hanky panky" (it was a kids film FYI) that he found hilarious so he was repeating it which made me crack up and then he'd jump on me for a cuddle while we laughed, for about 20mins after he kept trying to recreate that moment, which was so sweet and obviously I played along and, except he then forgot the words so they kept changing which was honestly funny too.

I also don't know where he got it from, but he was using a toy lion to "scare" me and he was absolutely pissing himself and then gave me finger guns ... Like excuse me where did you get that bit from... I LOVE it.

When I took him to bed he struggled to stand up from the toilet and was just a sad little thing.

He's rarely unwell and when he is usually bounces back quickly so I'm hoping he'll be fine tomorrow, but I am worried about him.