loser

Started going to the gym so even though I've gotten smaller I haven't lost much weight. Well that changed when I developed IBS. I can't eat anymore without getting violent cramps. I went to the hospital because I thought I was going to die after I ate a couple crackers. So this is a permanent fixture of my life now

My life is completely falling apart like everyone in my family is either killing themselves or killing eachother. All I can do is uninvolve myself and try not to let it get to me too much so I can survive. There's no one to talk to when it gets this bad because no one else has been here before and it's just very isolating

I can't say how much this correlates with my weight loss but I have been getting invited to events so much more often than last summer. I've never had to turn people down so much and I kind of hate it because I feel like an asshole. I also feel completely undeserving, but then a year ago I would've been angry at myself for feeling that way because it's selfish. Being mental is great no matter what happens I will find a way to feel viscerally uncomfortable forever and always

Need to find a weak willed man who will buy me a new version of my favourite belt. Then everything in my life will be okay

My cousin is 8 and doesn't know that when you used to pick up a rock there would be bugs underneath it. His family came to visit us camping and I showed him, he'd never seen that before and didn't believe me when I said that that's how it's supposed to be

My favorite belt doesn't fit anymore. I hate this shit

My first weight goal was actually just whenever my double chin fucked off and I can say with confidence the bitch is dead

Weighing in the 210s.. feeling skinny today🤩

Watched madoka magica for the first time with my roommate. All I learnt was I'd make a deal with that cat to be permaskinny in a heartbeat

Today was so rough I'm thinking maybe I'll try a little whistle at night. Can't get any worse can it

As long as I keep losing weight faster than my bitch mom on ozempic