Teased and Tormented

Like many of you, I have tagged my thoughts and stories onto other people's posts. But below are my stand lone pieces, and maybe if I find one something critical tied to someone else's post. Please enjoy, and do not hesitate to share or comment. I also try to tag my deserving pieces with #n2c.

Non-Fiction

Welcome to Finder of Things - Personal exploration and welcome to my readers and followers.

The Earbuds, the Nails, the Wallet, and the Dao – A quiet reflection on self-permission and the power of small choices. Through everyday objects, this piece traces a personal shift toward softness and authenticity. It isn’t about becoming someone new, but about returning to what was always waiting beneath the noise.

Pride, Later in Life: What Queerness Means to Me Now That I Have the Language – A reflective naming journey through queerness, identity, and the slow uncovering of self once language finally arrives. This piece explores gender, desire, and softness beyond binaries—how Pride isn’t just celebration, but integration. Not about becoming someone new, but finally seeing what’s always been there.

Reclaiming Arousal: The Shape of Desire – A raw, personal reflection on how pain and rejection can shape desire into something that feels more like survival than freedom. This piece traces the author’s journey through shame, kink, and gender expression, wrestling with what it means to reclaim arousal as something rooted in care rather than erasure.

When Consent Isn’t Care – A trauma-informed reflection on how consent, while necessary, isn’t always synonymous with safety or love. This piece confronts the harm that can hide behind “consenting adults” rhetoric, especially in kink and self-inflicted edge play, and reclaims the need for care—not just permission.

Dragon or Cumdump – A vulnerable, grounded reflection on identity, fantasy, and shame. What begins as a stark online prompt becomes a meditation on wholeness—how strength isn't found in choosing power or submission, but in owning every hidden part of the self without flinching.

Infinite Complexity - A deeply personal reflection on identity, self-perception, and the fluidity of roles in relationships and life. This piece explores the impact of societal narratives, the struggle for authenticity, and the journey toward self-acceptance in all its complexity.

Names - A personal reflection on the power of names, roles, and the unexpected ways connections deepen. This piece captures the quiet, meaningful moments that reveal mutual understanding and respect.

Stories (Fiction and Non-Fiction)

Soft Under Her Hand (Fiction) - A deeply intimate and emotionally charged story about vulnerability, ownership, and transformation. Set in a piercing parlor, it explores the intersection of masculinity and femininity, submission and pride, as one partner is marked—physically and emotionally—under the loving, steady guidance of their Domme.

Unstoppable Need (Fiction) - A vividly sensual flash of erotic fiction, reveling in the irresistible pull of touch and sensation. Focused, teasing, and relentless, it captures the intoxicating thrill of desire.

Deliberate Touch (Based on a true story) - A slow, immersive descent into sensation and control, where every touch is deliberate, every command weighted with quiet authority. This piece explores the intersection of vulnerability, trust, and the thrill of surrender, wrapped in the intimacy of a single moment.

The Dentist (Based on a true story) - A deeply immersive and intensely erotic exploration of control, submission, and anticipation. This piece weaves together physical sensation and psychological tension, blurring the line between memory and reality, teasing out the thrill of surrender in both private and public spaces

Hypnotic Moonlight Shadows (Fiction)- A mesmerizing blend of fantasy and eroticism, this story delves into the primal pull of transformation, shifting power dynamics, and the hypnotic allure of the full moon. Passion and fear intertwine as lovers surrender to a shared reality where instinct reigns and desires run wild.

Feel (Fiction) - A provocative exploration of power, exhibitionism, and control, where arousal and restraint intertwine. This piece delves into the psychological and physical sensations of being on display, heightening every emotion, every reaction, and every unspoken truth.

Your chance to edge (Fiction) - An intense and boundary-pushing exploration of control, anticipation, and physical restraint. This piece heightens the tension between desperation and pleasure, weaving together submission, edging, and the psychological thrill of obedience.

Imagination (Fiction) - A teasing and tantalizing exploration of control and denial, where imagination runs wild with pleasure, only to be met with the harsh reality of surrender. This piece plays with anticipation, longing, and the deep ache of unfulfilled desire.

Hands (Fiction) - A brief but intense flash of sensation and suspense, where anticipation turns to uncertainty. Bound, blindfolded, and vulnerable—what happens when the hands touching you aren’t the ones you expected?

Sunday Morning (Based on a true story)- A playful and intimate moment shared between lovers, blending passion, connection, and laughter. This piece captures the raw, unfiltered joy of intimacy. Where pleasure and humor intertwine effortlessly.

Poetry

Marked: Wearing Me – A sensual, anticipatory poem about devotion, distance, and the moment claiming becomes real. Through imagined touch and spiritual submission, it honors the depth of connection that exists before bodies ever meet. The collar is more than a symbol—it’s the promise of something already known.

When the Anchor Wasn’t Thrown – A lyrical piece about absence, ritual, and quiet grief. Told through the imagery of ships, lions, and lighthouses, it captures the ache of devotion unmet—not through betrayal, but through silence. It holds the stillness of being left behind while choosing not to dim entirely.

I Was Ready – A quiet, aching poem about emotional preparedness and unmet return. It speaks to the pain not of rejection, but of absence—when love remains kind yet stops reaching back. This is a meditation on readiness, ritual, and the grief of being left without ever being told to go.

Beacon in Ruin - The poem is about abandonment, self-sacrifice, isolation, and the slow, painful process of healing. Through the metaphor of a lighthouse and the ships that pass through its waters, the poem explores what it means to burn oneself out for another, to endure years of self-inflicted suffering, and to be rediscovered and cared for—while still questioning what the future holds. (Reader's Guide)

Tending the Light - Is a poem about communication, support, and resilience in the face of struggle. It uses the extended metaphor of a ship and a lighthouse to explore the way guidance is sought, how miscommunication can create distance, and how light—when nurtured—becomes an act of mutual care. (Reader's Guide)