may starclan light your path

PLEASE EVERYONE WHO SEES THIS. LISTEN TO THE HEIST BY MACKLEMORE AND RYAN LEWIS TOT

imagine making art about getting sober and inspiring others to get sober and then relapsing yourself because you are only human and addiction is a fucking demonic disease ToT

i GENUINELY love the album THE HEIST by MACKLEMORE AND RYAN LEWIS and i'm tired of pretending that i don't

@viscerate omg not to get too macklemoric like i have only listened to the heist for nostalgia but i bought the cd from a used bookstore s a joke and every time i have listened to it it has been so inspirational LOL i think he was popular for a reason. anyways i really like this song (if i can be an example of getting sober/then i can be an example of starting over). he is super cringe in some ways but the addiction struggles always get to me LOL

i probably left my digicam somewhere random mindlessly because i am a fucking mindless random addict and do things like a lunatic and i need to kill myself ToT it is like one of the few joyful hobbies i had. and now i have nothing

i also am really trying to get back into sketchbooking i have a few things in queue about this i think it is good for the mental health but i can't really show you all what i've been sketchbooking lately because i can't find my digicam ToT i will be honest and say i fully fully relapsed wrt the substance abuse and it has been making me worse over the past week or two and part of that has been my fault 100% like following people on tumblr who are openly and proudly substance abusers. i am an extremely fragile person but i really do try! i really do try to be better! and anyways that is why i tried getting offline in the first place. and i started sketchbooking a little more. but i can't even show it now because i only take digicam or photobooth pics and i don't know where my digicam is because i am too fucking drunk ToT