I exist to exist

My abandonment issues and anxious attachment still can't handle "Do I miss your hand because I can't stand to see it go?" Is it the words? The VA? The sound of the stabs as she tries to kill the only person who tried to save her? I don't know. It hurts to even think about all the implications (and my projections)

And I think that's beautiful. You're "meant to be" but it doesn't have to be as lovers. It could be platonic, adversarial, parasitic, or straight up toxic.

Just found this while looking for playthroughs... I am now unwell 🫠

It clicked when I heard "Your existence hurts them" along with my state of mind atm, but yeah. It's all the fears of existence, repeatedly. Well, that put reincarnation in a sad light.

She likes you for who you are and wants you to be happy, even to the point of deconstructing herself literally (if you go that way). Technically, you molded her (even Shifty says so).

Makes sense why she got the Happily Ever After chapter. She wanted to leave and knew nothing else, so she left it up to you, but you chose to stay in the cabin. Oh you know, the cabin she's been trapped in since who knows when! So of course she's disappointed!

And then the Voice of the Smitten shows her your heart literally (because THAT seems the very not toxic thing to do 🙄) so she's probably just all "Oh, you love me that much? Okay, I'll do this to make us happy."

And we all witness the tragedy of that epilogue, until they choose to leave.

Well, never thought I'd cry over a line in a game I never played but keep watching playthroughs. But, here I am.

Why does this hurt so bad? Why do I keep thinking about this line? Of all the lines and dialogue!

I cried at other points watching streams and videos but this is the LINE that sticks in my head. The others are more about vibes.

Even if Haymitch did fill the cistern and somehow put out the fire in his house, his mom and Sid may still die because of their burns and/or smoke inhalation.

If one or both of them somehow survived, they wouldn't be able to function and Haymitch would have to live with that.

You do know that this is before the trauma, right? That was kinda the point. He wasn't all jaded and grumpy before. He was just a regular kid in love. They're poor but they get by with his mom's work and his part-time job. Yeah, he's kinda emotional sometimes but he does his best.

It just irks me that SotR is the most "in your face" book, literally hitting you in the face with the messages and comparisons and people still don't get it sometimes.

I understand not liking the book because it's not what you hoped for but at some point it just felt like she was just hating on everything about the characters. Even Maysilee?!

Jinu: Imma tank that.