cant stop thinking about the ryanaim establishing scenes at the beginning of leviticus.... especially the mill...
the first time, they're both so nervous, so giddy, trying hard to play it cool even though they both want eachother so badly. the impromptu throwing contest, ryan pretending that naim had a spider on his shoulder just to shove him, the roughhousing... all with such a palpable undertone of want.
the second time when they're smoking feels much calmer, because they've established their boundaries now, since their first kiss. they know, more or less, where they stand. still, it's nervous. naim is rambling, (presumably bc he's high lol) but also because he's nervous. we see that he reacts to stress with impulse (asking jessica that invasive ass question, outing ryan & hunter, etc). and he apologises afterwards. "i shouldn't have told you that, im sorry." and ryan, obviously much more comfortable with his sexuality, says "you shouldn't be." i interpreted it as a double meaning, ryan telling naim not to be nervous around him. "your secret's safe with me." (painful, considering ryan's secret was rather unsafe with naim, lol)
when ryan asks naim if there's anything he likes about the place, and naim's little sly grin when he realises ryan is fishing for a compliment... and he refuses ryan the satisfaction, even with his expression and his actions plainly stating otherwise, he shakes his head. "no. nothing." because he's learning now that he has power too. the first time they were here, ryan initiated because naim wouldn't dare, despite them both wanting the same thing. but now, naim understands that he can also initiate. he can have this, and not just be a passive participant.
