toointojoelmiller

🟧 work in progress // 🟦 complete

please don't go // my after winter/post ep 8 story 138,202 • last update 25 Mar 2024 tumblr | ao3

Do yourself a favour and use ao3 for this one it’s hella long and I’m still working on moving it all to Tumblr

Secondary question, how do you feel about people binding your fics? I would love to bind it if it is ever completed (again no pressure). Disclaimer, it would be purely for my own personal bookshelf and never sold or profited from in any way.

Thanks 💜

This is a tough thing for me to give an answer to, because I really don't know. I have always planned to finish it - I have an ending that has been in my mind for a while, and I would love nothing more than to get it finally out there.

I don't exactly know why writing has been so elusive for me for so long, but I know parts of it: my substance use bullshit, my difficulty with not getting overwhelmed by stresses at work, and sometimes feeling like if I let my brain go back to the really painful sort of place that I need to be in to write PDG (lol) I will get stuck there more and more. Thinking about parenthood, and thinking about grief, and thinking about dads (lol again) - it all remains something of a Russian roulette game for my sanity :)). There is also the fun input of my psych meds, which I feel made it take me longer and longer to get words out as I titrated up on then. Sometimes I wonder if I am just tricking myself, looking for an out, but sometimes I do really feel like they made it harder for my brain to get creative in the same way.

And tragically, because capitalism, I do have to function. So... the answer is... I open my docs once in a while, with not that much progress to share. I am obviously not ready to let go of this story. I think about it all the time. I'd love if I found my way back to it sooner than later, but I'm famously unreliable.