"The gays, good heavens" - Harold Bloom

cant be bothered to make a new pfp plus I like the perfect blue one sooooo. happy birthday to me regardless. ignore the lack of a hedgehog adorned with bday paraphernalia

what i can now recognise as a longtime desperation for people to see me in even a vaguely feminine light means my outward persona has for years consisted of a repertoire of quips/mannerisms alluding to being a homosexual man (similar in style to how normal straight guys act, but in my case portrayed as a genuine insight into my sexuality). this is of course not true. i dislike a lot of men. my own outward masculinity included. the idea of being a man into men is x2 unpleasant as a transbian. so now its a dumb circular path of wanting to be seen as feminine looping around to centering men

god new order really do fuck like that wdym blue monday is that good