I'm just doing my best

Pickford is such a hero

I lost 0.5kg supposedly between Monday and Friday, but I think I was dehydrated when I weighed myself Friday morning (I'd been the hottest I'd ever been from an endurance sparring session at the dojo the night before)

But this weekend we had pizza for dinner on Saturday and a huge roast lunch today and the comparison at the gym was unreal. Not so much with lifting but on the crosstrainer I got to half an hour easily and could have gone beyond my 45 minutes

I loved the drinks vending machines. That had cans of ice cold unsweetened black coffee 😍 I'll miss that the most

It's fun to pay with cash. I loved putting coins into machines

The food was amazing. The best part, as I expected. Sushi every day. I love the iPad/conveyor belt combo

I went to four different gyms. Two municipal, two branches of Gold's. The latter being expensive, but really good. I bought a t shirt

There were so many signs with rules everywhere. And I liked it tbh. No smoking on the street was weird, but then you could smoke in some bars!

The arcades were great

Our flight yesterday was cancelled so we've had to do Schiphol's security again this morning. I got flagged and frisked again as always but this time just got sent on my way as usual

I had to get my cock out going through airport security. At Amsterdam/Schiphol flying to Japan

It's funny now, but I was nervous at the time

I was getting frisked after being flagged with the body scanner like always. I finally got a new version of my stp/packer last week and it's a bit more solid so lies a little less flat in my pants.

So as he was rubbing me down he literally groped it and I guess it's not passable, he asked "what is this?" So I told him "it's my silicon prosthetic penis" and I got led into a changing room booth where I had to show him. Which was fine, I'm a huge exhibitionist and not shy.

I was just worried they'd either not let me on the plane, or confiscate it. But neither happened and he apologised and sent me on my way. So it was totally fine

A town not too far away had 6 boxes, which I now have. Greg very kindly drove me there and then picked me up again after. Just after arriving, the pharmacy closed for lunch and kicked me out for an hour. I've been so stressed with work I lost my mind over this. But it was okay in the end

Very fortunately I was organised this time and ordered more T while I still had two boxes left...

Pharmacy I usually go to said they didn't have any, it's unavailable, try other pharmacies

Sainsbury's doesn't have a pharmacy any more. Most are closed today. Boots online checker shows a town 12km has some, but none any closer

My UK dentist wanted about £400 for it last October, so I put it off until moving to NL. I pay ~€160 a month mandatory health insurance here, and I opted into the dental care module.

Scrolling back through my workout logs, I used to do up to 6 reps with 100kg, but not with all (or any) of them being full ROM (kissing the second rail height bars) back in early 2025

Then I could barely do any because of my knee injury. But I've basically resolved that now. And I just need to accept that I need to avoid hack squats, the "perfect squat" machine, or anything else that positions my bum far behind my feet. They isolate quads so well, but at the expense of putting pressure on my kneecaps. Which was the source of my issue.

ANYWAY I've been able to squat heavy again, and I've finally got back to 100kg. 2 reps, the first perfectly kissing the bar, the second a little less depth. But both good. Did that twice just now 🎉

Then I had nuggets and a sausage roll from Greggs

Two pints and a double whisky at the gig

Packet of crisps on the way home

Sorry that my blog became my way to track my off day, the urge in my mind to write it down somewhere persists

Got to Lidl starving, bought a cookie, and an olive roll. I had an absolute banging sandwich with BBQ chicken, low fat mozzarella, capers, salad and pesto

Ate the cookie. Then the ice cream van came. Oh how I've missed the ice cream man, he calls me "my lovely son". I had a new biscoff one and it was great

Looking at that last pic of me......I think I'm there. Vascular enough and my collarbones are starting to stick out

I'm back to where I was before my little break: 63.5kg (was 63.4kg)

The 62 is symbolic... I want to reach it for the sake of it really

Today is Tuesday. Tonight I'm having dinner with a friend, tomorrow I'm travelling and seeing a gig in the evening, Thursday I've got family dinner, and Friday/all weekend a pre-wedding party...

Realistically Friday morning is my last chance for a winning weigh in... I'm all over the place with social events after so I guess I'll give up again in any case then

So fingers crossed but I won't care too much & I'm looking forwards to this being over again lol

Yesterday it took ages to download Minecraft, and I gave up on streaming more than once because my connection was too crap