Also still smoshin it in general. amangela (lesbian smosh rpf) has gone somewhat mainstream lately which makes me feel crazy because ive been shipping it for yearssssszzzz and it just reaffirms my world view that rpfing is A precious ritual to be kept close to the heart not broadcast across the world. because when you get too big for your boots you get the real people involved saying "guys this is weird you don't know what friendship looks like 🙄"

Also now I'm getting averageharry edits on my fyp. We are never getting out of here man

The issue with clingyduo nostalgia is you can miss it but you can never ever rewatch half of it. you know what they say. you can go back to the past but wilbur soot will be there

when a clingyduo edit uses that clip from when they first met and tubbo goes he just got me 10 followers!!!!!! I actually want to pull out every single one of my hair follicles

its the first day of my period and i just spent half an hour scrolling clingyduo edits on tiktok instead of doing my psychology homework

Also I think it's really funny how much the general cultural consciousness has come around to rpf and celebrity sexuality truthing. We got our asses beat in my day for saying in private what people are saying in broad daylight now. Don't they know I paved these streets for them?

Despite everything this blog was lowkey the ideal fandom experience for me. Well not really the death threats were bad. But it was really fun to be able to speak my mind and have a constant dialogue about fandom culture and be able to observe everything from my little tower. I find even now that fandom and fame continues to fascinate me and I always want to talk about it but there will probably never truly be a space like this again.... Wild the things we take for granted when we're 15

happy birthday tubbo. got my wisdom teeth out today in his honor<3