vent post. not to be a huge downer on anyone (ironic considering the following) and i don't know if it's past experiences or the people I spend time with or my anxiety disorder or my chronic sense of guilt and worthlessness but I find it really difficult to express my trans joy. i was just about to share in a private space about something im happy with regarding my transition and felt an overwhelming voice in my head saying that it would make people uncomfortable or jealous or what have you. Fuck phobes and all but dammit I know that some people aren't as far along as me and I know that some of my friends just do not have the opportunity to transition, but I'm tired of feeling like I'm in a crab bucket.
All this noise because my boobs are now big enough to squish eachother when I lay on my side and i look great in a pushup
Yayyy
