Come one and all

They’re always called test, that way if I don’t continue its a failed test and if I do but end it on my own terms it was a success. The doctor told me to keep a journal Incase my mind starts slipping at a much faster rate than before so i can see how I used to be rather than what i will be. Its been a little over a week after i told her I fear that I’m going crazy with all the smaller things. I have trouble sleeping because I keep getting up and have to check in case i forgot to lock it, i keep looking around in case some one is around.

I keep imagining things, like daydreaming but with the people around me currently and its usually either pornagraphic or murderous never both. The tablet I’m currently writing this on is so slow I might have to stop earlier than I thought or else the whole thing might have crash. I keep thinking about moving away from my family and changing my name so they can’t find me. If your wondering what’s the message in all this, there is none it’s a test and I’m just writing things down on my mind with no correlation. I ripped off my mole to see if it would grow back, it did. Would anyone actually read this? they’re not really meant to but will they?

Spacing is important is what I heard once, that’s why I keep hitting random breaks in the wording, so it looks important. I how high is too high to jump off and if it differs between people.

Maybe if I train hard enough I can jump so high I’ll hurt myself on landing. i’ll need to take my meds soon, 100mg, they keep highering the dosage to see if it’ll cure me from whatever it is, they once said it was ADHD and then changed their mind to baseline anger and changed again and basically told me they have no fucking clues which is usually what you want to hear from the people who keep pumping chemicals Into you.

Last year, thousands of community members and fans came together on February 1st to honor one of their idols, Monyreak “Monty” Oum. They spent a day working on their passion projects, pursuing their goals, and doing their best without worrying about whether they had the skills or time.

They started writing, drawing, coding, sculpting, creating in any way they could, and this year we want to do it all over again.

On February 4th, the Monty Oum Project wants you to start something new.

Write the first page of the story you have in your head, start the webcomic you’ve been thinking about, make a video and post it on youtube, start coding a game, building something new, create an art piece just for yourself.

It doesn’t matter if your goal is to create, to better yourself, or to just do the absolute best you can do for that day.

Without thinking about the time constraints or whether you think you can, start a project that you want to start, and remember that the effort you put into anything transcends yourself.

Keep Moving Forward with us, this February 4th.