A toast to the Underdogs

when you think she's different but every single one seems to be the same. can't be happy, ever.

just as things start to get better...

wow I'm drunk lol

on the pursuit of happiness. I’ve grown numb to the work I’ve been doing and I’ve been all around the world in the last 6 months. I just count down the minutes to the next flight now in between seeing family and being home, this world is so fucked, you guys have no idea. I wish I could tell you.

sometimes you just need to get stupid high to forget about all the women that fucked you up in the past, and a nice drive, too.

I see you in so many people and it fucks me up every single time.

I honestly hate everything I’m just done with all of this shit man fuck it. I’m going to move somewhere and just stay there and be alone, somewhere way the fuck away from everyone I just don’t want to be around people anymore I honestly just fucking hate people. especially the women that have been in my life in the three years. all but one. every single one has fucked me up and now it’s just the tipping point I guess because I literally do not care about anything right now. I just want this to be over with already.

going to Cali for the next 7 days starting Monday. there's your silly reminder if you even look at this still.

I just feel so numb. I don’t want to be here anymore. I don’t want any of this anymore I just want to feel normal again I want family and I want happiness and I want someone to love and all of the last 10 months has just been so full of ups and downs I don’t even know where to begin and I wish I could forgot about 8 of those months and just have happy memories of you and not think about how badly I fucked everything up and how badly I actually need you. that’s what keeps me up at night.